Help, my newest obsession!

Have been diagnosed with OCD recently. Have always had anxiety with small bouts of depression. Treated in the past with lexapro. Now I am treating my OCD with 100 mg of Lamictal and 10 mg of Lexapro. Mood is better, OCD symptoms (fear of self harm) are less. But some days I feel worse than others and fear that I am never going to get better. Other days I feel great and confident and want to do things. I started reading up a rapid cycling and wonder if that is what I am going through. They say SSRIs can make it worse. Frankly I feel terrible when I go off of SSRIs. I am 49 years old. When I asked my therapist she only said, "my main problem is OCD, not sure what else I would diagnose you with." That is not a ringing endorsement.

I simply cannot have any form of Bipolar because it disqualifies me from my job.

Somebody talk me off the ledge (figuratively not literally)

IMO you seem to be doing better than a lot of people. I wouldn't worry about labels etc. just try and meditate and get your life into a functional balance. Sorry you are struggling. I'm having an off day today, could be the muggy weather. Who knows for sure? Instead of focusing on answers focus on what helps.