Just kissed off a long term group of friends...

Dwight wrote:I see at as you have pushed your friends away because you feel removed and don't feel that you have the same impact you once did.

True but... if indeed, no one is responding to me, and further,they generally make me unhappy, can we really say they are "friends" or rather strangers that I talk to because I feel I should. Friendship implies that there is a shared experience but I have had threads (a lot) that were just... ignored... over and over again. What is the point of that?

There is no belonging... there is only me talking and usually being attacked for some minor thing I said.

It is ironic imho that this recent blow up is because it was suggested that my posts are keeping people away from posting. But, many times I have been PMed by people who didn't feel comfortable posting anymore because of being made to feel they weren't welcome by others. When my mom was sick a lot of people came out of the woodwork to PM me.

I will keep the log in and all... and then ... maybe in a few weeks go back, but, it is very disheartening.

Sara, I've added you as a friend. If you have any problems and need someone to talk to, feel free to PM me, I'll be glad to help you out.

You don't need to feel alone. There are many people on this forum and in others you belong to, that might not reply to your posts, but have you in mind, and might not have the words to say to help you out.

I don't know if you're a christian, but here's a verse I hope you'll find helpful:

Isaiah 41:10 wrote:Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

shnbwmn wrote:Sara, I've added you as a friend. If you have any problems and need someone to talk to, feel free to PM me, I'll be glad to help you out.

Very nice.. thank you.

I am not christian... and I guess I don't know if I feel alone.. really I am starting to question if the introduction to the internet has actually made me unhappier. When I was in school I lived in Michigan and had a plan for my internet (2 hours a day for 19 a month). Since I could only spend like 2 hours a day on it, I would get off ... I remember there, I hardly ever went on! I was so much happier and real world... of course, I was also in school.

So disappointed in those friends and wondering what I did wrong. Clearly they grew to dislike me and now people are coming out of the woodwork to post (so I guess it was me). Everyone wants to make a show.

Bottom line though... I just feel like I have out grown it and it is time to focus on real life goals that need to be met. {{}}

SaraShaw wrote:Bottom line though... I just feel like I have out grown it and it is time to focus on real life goals that need to be met. {{}}

It's good that you are aware of is going on.

Sometimes alot of things in the past just need to be totally left behind. I think some people, unaware (me), will resort to destroying some things to make sure this happens. Then, when there is nothing, or almost nothing, left of the past to be held onto, you can move forward. Anyways, that's what happened with me, I think there are still a few things to let go of, it's hard. This experience, of course, may or may not be applicable to you.

AlAtBar wrote: I think some people, unaware (me), will resort to destroying some things to make sure this happens. Then, when there is nothing, or almost nothing, left of the past to be held onto, you can move forward. Anyways, that's what happened with me, I think there are still a few things to let go of, it's hard. This experience, of course, may or may not be applicable to you.

Yes that is what I do also... although the irony is that the last time... seemingly the same sort of thing did not result in any change, I was brought back in even thought I ranted and raved...

I have a hard time with change because it takes so long to find good things... then you want to keep them for as long as possible.. but really... I have extended it far longer than I should have.

Ironically enough now come the barrage of PMs (which come to my e-mail) like this board. So I logged on, I didn't read them but they were from the moderators telling me the thread had been locked and I am sure there was a lot of chaffing that went on there. See that is nauseating to me because I don't think the mods do anything to protect me or any of the other posters but when we get upset about that - then we are spoken to.

SaraShaw wrote:

AlAtBar wrote: I think some people, unaware (me), will resort to destroying some things to make sure this happens. Then, when there is nothing, or almost nothing, left of the past to be held onto, you can move forward. Anyways, that's what happened with me, I think there are still a few things to let go of, it's hard. This experience, of course, may or may not be applicable to you.

Yes that is what I do also... although the irony is that the last time... seemingly the same sort of thing did not result in any change, I was brought back in even thought I ranted and raved...

I have a hard time with change because it takes so long to find good things... then you want to keep them for as long as possible.. but really... I have extended it far longer than I should have.

Ironically enough now come the barrage of PMs (which come to my e-mail) like this board. So I logged on, I didn't read them but they were from the moderators telling me the thread had been locked and I am sure there was a lot of chaffing that went on there. See that is nauseating to me because I don't think the mods do anything to protect me or any of the other posters but when we get upset about that - then we are spoken to.

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SaraShaw wrote:

Parador wrote:Why not set up a bunch of fake profiles on that forum?

I think ... LOL .. of course that wouldn't work because I couldn't talk about myself.. everyone knows me... so I would basically have to be making up a total lie just to talk?

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It's not a lie if YOU believe it. Haven't you always wanted to be someone else? You CAN be on the internet. I've been a garbageman, a male model, a biker stud, a needy nerd and a space alien! And none of the profiles were lies. They are all just diferent aspects of my personaility. It's not like someone else wrote the profile - so those guys WERE me. Does that make any sense? I hope not. But do it anyway. It's FUN!!

SaraShaw wrote: See that is nauseating to me because I don't think the mods do anything to protect me or any of the other posters but when we get upset about that - then we are spoken to.

ANOTHER reason you need the other profiles. Some mods can be real poop heads sometimes. POOP POOP POOP!!!!

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