Confused

I am just recently finding about Avoidant Personality Disorder and it seems to fit me. I'm not 100% sure but I have episodes frequently where I am unable to speak clearly, and it frustrates me. I also have trouble remembering names and find myself so involved with how I can convey and sort my thoughts in my brain that I don't remember what is going on around me. I also have trust issues and find it hard to make friends and keep anyone close. I have noticed that I've had issues for a few years now but its finally taken a toll on me mentally...I'm just not myself and prefer to be alone a lot more. My self esteem is up and down too. Always looking for reassurance and don't take kindly to negativity or criticism directed to me. I am on Adderall and wondering if the medicine could be making things worse. My neurologist put me on Adderall due to my excessive sleepiness. I am also wondering if this disorder might be whats making me tired and sleepy in the first place. If anyone has any answer please let me know.

Hey welcome to the forum BlueOrchid!

I feel your pain, AvPD can be very energy draining, I just find out about the disorder 2 weeks ago so I'm in the same boat. Your body must still be energetic enough to run a marathon but your brain's telling you to give it up. But look on the bright side, you said that your self-esteem is up and down, so at least it's not down all the time! When would you say your self-esteem goes up? I don't know but you could probably try to replicate those situations.

Hello BlueOrchird! I'm not sure if you have AvPD but you seem to have a few signs of it (like taking criticism very personally). I never heard anything about AvPD making people tired and sleepy. I don't know what side effects Adderall might have, so it is a possibility it could change your personality. You should check with your neurologist again.

Hi BlueOrchid

I bet you find it hard to go to bed and struggle to get up in the morning?
Your mind is working overtime, with "don't do this and don't do that" senarios going through your head and as a result you're exhausted though the day.
The tiredness is from late nights trying to understand what the is going on.

Usually, I'm dead against medication for avoidance (wooohooo very opinionated today ) but to help you sleep that's a great thing....
One thing to bare in mind, only my oppinion - no cred except for a BA(Hons) in AvPD from the university of Dwight.

So deffinately go with merely-me's recommendation in being diagnosed.

And welcome aboard, nice to have you here with us.

Dwight