Hi, a new fellow sufferer

Hi,

Just want to introduce myself. Man, what a life. I'm 42 years old, too much to try and sum up, even if I could. But just to open discussion, I was wondering, do any of you (perhaps more-so older members) look at your life -- past and present, and wonder how you've survived?

For myself, objectively speaking, the life events, circumstances, everything -- beyond comprehension. I couldn't have designed a worse life if I tried. It's truly surreal. Do any of you wonder how the heck you've survived it? I would, except I think I've entered into the category of "walking dead" at this point. Don't mean to be morbid. It's just that' I've had a really bad last 42 years It's nice to be here

I'm 24, and constantly telling myself that I'm way too young to feel so old.

I can sometimes cope by telling myself that I'm a spectator of my life, rather than the shaper of it.

"Surreal?"

Yes. Very.

My life has been very difficult at times, but I know there are many who are much worse off. I guess for me the good has always outweighed the bad, even if only by a little bit. I've always felt that there is something there, waiting for me to grab it, if only I would reach out. But because it's dark and I can't seen it, I'm scared to. I have moments, often very brief, but almost everyday I have a moment where I really believe things can be different, that things will be different.

Hi Saint.F,

I've also wondered how I survived certain points in my life...
But the fact that you are here on this forum makes me think you still have hope as well as belief in yourself to improve your situation.
Welcome!

Well wishes,

Evol

Hey thanks, Evol

Saint.F wrote:For myself, objectively speaking, the life events, circumstances, everything -- beyond comprehension. I couldn't have designed a worse life if I tried.

Just amazing when I looked at all the risk factors of AvPD. The stars could not have aligned worse for me.

Do any of you wonder how the heck you've survived it?

Yep, I've done some crazy stuff that I survived, could have easily got into some pretty deep trouble. Consider myself luck for having dodged those bullets. The final bullet hit me pretty hard, that took my pretty close to the brink, lucky I seem to be bouncing back from that one now.

Welcome to our group! Nice to have you have (although we, of course, hope your situation improves and you don't have to stay with us that long).

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AlAtBar and bottles666. Thank you for the Welcomes