Unfair.

ck2d wrote:I so know what you mean! People who are scum of the earth have people who love them. Well, I can count on one hand the number of people who would come to my funeral. If they're scum and they have friends, what does that make me?

It makes you the type of person that doesn't associate with scum. Scum have friends that are scum. They associate because of converging needs. Love? Their version of it. More like co-dependence sugarcoated to resemble "love". The "people" in question live in a different subculture that operate by standards that you would find alien and very much not to your liking. I'd rather be alone than to have to call that waste of flesh "friend".

Oh, yeah, that's sounds familiar. I figure the world is made up of users and used, and I don't want to be either of those, so I've basically dropped out of society. It's lonely, but I haven't compromised myself, so I guess it's a trade off I can live with.

ck2d wrote:Oh, yeah, that's sounds familiar. I figure the world is made up of users and used, and I don't want to be either of those, so I've basically dropped out of society. It's lonely, but I haven't compromised myself, so I guess it's a trade off I can live with.

I'm there with you to a great degree. Over the years I've had to wrestle with my condition (not knowing what it was or that it was even a condition, despite formal analysis) and accept that I was different. I isolated myself before others could do it for me. Like you, I tried not to compromise myself and my values, never treading in the gray area because I wouldn't or couldn't learn how. Forty+ years on and I still wonder if those who can make connections actually do make them, or are they superficial and not of the quality that I would need to even consider putting the effort in. For me, if I consider someone worthwhile and that I could open my heart to (which perforce means they reciprocate), I would completely give of myself to that person, I would die for that person. Maybe not such a strong statement since dying is not looking so awful right now.