zahara wrote:I wouldn't completely give up on the idea of making friends in an office job just yet. I made one. I even went to the company picnic *gasp*, I couldn't believe I did it! Plus I noticed that a lot of the people who work at my job are just as socially inept as me. I guess that's why we like engineering. Machines don't judge, and when you're not working with machines you get to hide in a cube. Anyway, its easier to make friends if they aren't in any place to judge me as odd. At least for me it is.
We shall see what happens. But I had to be around 300-400 people a day for 13 years to make a few friends. It just seems like I can only be friends with one in a million people. Friends can be bad news anyway. I was friends with a woman from work but she turned into a pathological liar and a cheat. It was too much. I couldn't count her as a friend anymore.
the pain wrote:I worry about how im gonna to make a living constantly. Im nervous around people, socially inept so i feel my options are limited, so that makes me even more scared. Im studying accounting atm but even then i would still have to be able to interact with others so i dont know if it is a good choice. School is hard enough as it is, i cant even imagine interviewing for a job and trying to "sell" myself. Its all hypothetical anyway because first i would actually have to get my ass through college and graduate.
Really just feels like a pipe dream to be honest. Iv been down this road before, tricking myself that i could actually make it in the Armywhat a joke. I mean it took me to 27 to get up enough nerve to start college full time. So who the ###$ am i kidding?
I know what you're going through. It may be really hard to get work. I remember trying it and it beat me down to the point where I just couldn't deal with it. If you can get diagnosed with a disability like SAD it could get you into a voc rehab program. They will hook you up with work.