Eating out?

I had the same problem in college which is why I'm a stone lighter than when I first started and why I fainted on three occasions in the corridors and probably why Welcome to the Dollhouse is my favourite movie.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=93pgIhN8fp0

I don't like to be seen eating. I'm a fat guy and I can't help but think that people are disgusted by me and there is no way to not laugh at a fat guy stuffing his face so everybody who sees me is silently mocking me. I know it's stupid, I don't really eat that much and I look no more stupid eating than anybody else.

I also feel like an incredible loser eating in public by myself. When I was in college I dreaded going to the dining hall. I typically only went like 4 times a week because I didn't want to sit at a table by myself in this gigantic room full of people socializing and being happy and mocking me with their eyes... I lost a good bit of weight when I was there from starving myself.

Like emotionaltyphoon I'm afraid of people recognizing my patheticness. This one guy who works the drive through at mcdonalds said I was a regular and tries to shoot the breeze with me when I come through, he knows my order and $#%^. And it just makes me feel so ######6 pathetic that I go there to eat alone all the time. I don't like anybody recognizing me. Ever. Anonymity is my safty blanket.

Anyway to the op, yea I've been there. It sucks when you are too avoidant to even leave the house and get food. I kind of suggest just putting up with it, being hungry is better than being humiliated. And dropping a few pounds is better than putting on the freshman 15.