Degrees of depression

Asuka wrote:I'm seriously considering going off my meds. They're making me sleepy and I'm getting sad and angry again anyway. Depressions there for a reason;to tell you somethings wrong just like physical pain. And it will be addressed by me leaving this country.

I´m sorry to hear this. Ain´t words to say. I feel your pain. Rest and have these ######6 pills. I became depressed again, because I stopped having my pills so I will be able to have a baby. But, here am I, again.
I share your pain.
Go to sleep! This is what I should be doing many hours ago.
Good luck, my friend!

hannnnaa wrote:
Oh and the one antidepressant that I've constantly heard good things about is Welbutrin. One thing a lot of people complain about is it makes them agitated because of the energy that it gives you, but having low energy is a big problem for me and I respond well to stimulants like Adderall, so that actually sounds to me like another upside. I really want to try it but I'm scared to go to any more doctors and get turned away and told my problems aren't important again. I'd almost rather live with the possibility than have another door closed in my face.

I've taken adderall before, and wellbutrin did feel a little bit like adderall, but not nearly as helpful as far as focus goes. it also effected my personality and made me strangely uptight and less talkative in a different way so i quit it. it seemed like a lot of the bad parts of adderall. but every once in a while i would take it and get a nice social spring in my step. I still have the bottle and take it sometimes when i want to get absorbed in something.

I had to shuffle around different doctors too, until I got a nice psychiatrist who would work trial and error with me until i hit something i liked. its frustrating.

sublyp wrote:

hannnnaa wrote:
Oh and the one antidepressant that I've constantly heard good things about is Welbutrin. One thing a lot of people complain about is it makes them agitated because of the energy that it gives you, but having low energy is a big problem for me and I respond well to stimulants like Adderall, so that actually sounds to me like another upside. I really want to try it but I'm scared to go to any more doctors and get turned away and told my problems aren't important again. I'd almost rather live with the possibility than have another door closed in my face.

I've taken adderall before, and wellbutrin did feel a little bit like adderall, but not nearly as helpful as far as focus goes. it also effected my personality and made me strangely uptight and less talkative in a different way so i quit it. it seemed like a lot of the bad parts of adderall. but every once in a while i would take it and get a nice social spring in my step. I still have the bottle and take it sometimes when i want to get absorbed in something.

I had to shuffle around different doctors too, until I got a nice psychiatrist who would work trial and error with me until i hit something i liked. its frustrating.

I've been on alot of antidepressants and Wellbutrin by far was the best out of all of them for me. I have the same problem with lack of energy so the Wellbutrin really helped with that. I was also on anti anxiety meds so that took care of any agitation I might have. I really want to go back on meds. I just can't get myself to call my psychiatrist and start seeing her again. I know I need to go back on medication though.

My depression changes daily, or sometimes by the hour, anywhere from a 10 (suicidal) to a 5.

I was at an 8 or so a couple of months back when it looked like there was no solution to my dental problem. Now it looks like there might be something, so I am down to a 3. I have never taken medication. I think watching South Park is the best thing for depression.

I would like to try antidepressants. I can't afford medical treatment though. Even when I had insurance, I was to avoidant to go to the doctor. I don't think I will ever have the will power to bring myself to ask for help.

GSYBE wrote: I've read about something called "dysthymia," which is a form of long term depression that has the major symptoms of depression but with less severity.

Oh man I have every symptom of Dysthymia. Seems like the description fits me word for word. I must look into this further.


As for the thread I'd say at the moment I bounce between 5-7. I've been around 8-9 in the past though.
I am not willing to take any form of medication. I feel it would be more detrimental than beneficial. As long as I don't kill myself, a little depression can't be worse than the side-effects of said medication.

Asuka wrote:I think depression for me is the biggest issue I have. I don't even think I have AvPD anymore, just traits. And I think alot of those traits,though not all, have been predicated by depression.

I think I have all the emotional issues of AvPD, but they lead to depression and not social anxiety.

Asuka wrote:

hannnnaa wrote:

Asuka wrote:I think depression for me is the biggest issue I have. I don't even think I have AvPD anymore, just traits. And I think alot of those traits,though not all, have been predicated by depression.

I think I have all the emotional issues of AvPD, but they lead to depression and not social anxiety.

That's interesting Hanna. Could you explain that for me please. I think you may be on to something.

Well I have huge self esteem issues and I have trouble getting close to people, which is why I relate so well to the description of AvPD. But I do manage to have a life, as in I have a girlfriend, a job, I go out all the time (with my girlfriend anyways, I could never go out alone and no one else invites me), I have no problems leaving the house to do errands or whatever, and I even have a few friends other than my gf, even though I always wish I had more and that they really wanted to spend time with me.

I'm just...not happy with myself, and I never have been and it runs so deep that I can't unlearn it. It doesn't cripple me to the point where I can't do anything normal, but it holds me back from doing anything meaningful in my life. Also I'm constantly basing my happiness on other people...it's like people are a drug that gets me high but I'm addicted to it so I get really depressed when my friends reject me, like an addict that can't get a fix. Haha I just thought of that drug metaphor on the spot...I guess that kinda makes sense!

Lately my depression has been a 7 or 8. I think a lot of my depression comes from having really bad social anxiety.

It really depends. Lately I have been feeling particularly optimistic however right now I'd probably put myself at an 8 or 9