The official Christmas thread.

sublyp wrote:I'm doing a gift exchange with someone on youtube in the UK, and they opened mine today!

That's probably the only gift I'll be giving this year.

A gift exchange? How does that work? (Dumb question I know)

I understand that some people are lonely and have nowhere to go on holidays, and that some people have been hurt on past holidays and such, but c'mon guys! How can you say you hate Xmas? Even if you're and atheist, if you are a nihilist, or if you are a loner, the holiday season is our ONE EXCUSE we have to just be happy! It doesn't matter what you're celebrating. Its just a time for good tidings, and thats all that matters!

Most of us have the holiday spirit engraved in our systems from our childhood, but Im guessing most of the people on this site (over the age of 25 anyway) just feel left out this time of year from all the lonely holidays they've been having. If its that painful for you, I recommend volunteering at a soup kitchen this year! You wouldn't feel so alone helping the less fortunate. The people are nice and will talk to you, tell you stories of their past holidays and such. Combined with the good feeling of helping others, It'd be like having those childhood loving-family christmas moments all over again!

I feel like they should just make an official "Holiday Season" that has nothing to do with religion or former tradition. Everyone gets out of school/work, and everyone just feels inclined to celebrate. Yes, i think that, if not christmas, there should be a holiday that's just an excuse to unite and celebrate! Even if only for one night, it would be all of us, and that's what makes it so sacred.

I looked forward to it when I was still in school, a whole week off. Now it means nothing.

However this December....I'm almost shocked at how fast my time is leaving me. It's probably something to do with the narcotics, but I feel like my memories are fading, my mind is failing, with nothing left but a woeful tomorrow to look forward to.

And I'm....very happy- things are terrible, my family is crumbling under debt, my friends are descending into the depths of addiction, and I feel a pure hatred for myself, my situation and everyone and everything in this dying nihilistic world...

The ritual, in perfect order, my self imposed suffering...And I'll be free soon... so happy.

Fulfillment. Purpose. Meaning. I have it all. Sure, it's all illusory, but mine is a mind so prone to self-deception. My mind is at peace, so long as my herb is in reach...

It is this time of the year more than the rest, that I dream of checking out. There is no panic, no confusion, no conundrum: I am at the center of a calm and orderly universe when I dream of .

Who says just because there are more suicides during the Holiday season implies a lack of joy?

Nothing brings me closer to a stony-faced smile then thinking forward to those last .

EVery Christmas I witness the rift between my family, the broken promises, the dashed anticipations, the wounded "hope", every year, our ritual, of self-imposed misery: I revel in this- for drives my every will power to crave escape!

Sorry

Oh boy, another Christmas in my tiny apartment with only the television to keep me company. Yippee.

Yukinari wrote:

sublyp wrote:I'm doing a gift exchange with someone on youtube in the UK, and they opened mine today!

That's probably the only gift I'll be giving this year.

A gift exchange? How does that work? (Dumb question I know)

It's this girl whose vlogs I watch and comment on, and for Christmas she wanted to exchange gifts with some subscribers, so you PM'd her with with some info about yourself and your address and she would send an address back. And everyone sends packages out and opens them on video. I didn't get hers yet though.

I think I'm going to claim no camera anyway, I hate seeing myself in videos, it would take me forever to make one I like and then I would probably panic and delete it.

sublyp wrote:

Yukinari wrote:

sublyp wrote:I'm doing a gift exchange with someone on youtube in the UK, and they opened mine today!

That's probably the only gift I'll be giving this year.

A gift exchange? How does that work? (Dumb question I know)

It's this girl whose vlogs I watch and comment on, and for Christmas she wanted to exchange gifts with some subscribers, so you PM'd her with with some info about yourself and your address and she would send an address back. And everyone sends packages out and opens them on video. I didn't get hers yet though.

I think I'm going to claim no camera anyway, I hate seeing myself in videos, it would take me forever to make one I like and then I would probably panic and delete it.

Same with me, I could never do that. I'm embarassed enough with my family watching me open up gifts. It would be a nightmare for me.

Yukinari wrote:

sublyp wrote:It's this girl whose vlogs I watch and comment on, and for Christmas she wanted to exchange gifts with some subscribers, so you PM'd her with with some info about yourself and your address and she would send an address back. And everyone sends packages out and opens them on video. I didn't get hers yet though.

I think I'm going to claim no camera anyway, I hate seeing myself in videos, it would take me forever to make one I like and then I would probably panic and delete it.

Same with me, I could never do that. I'm embarassed enough with my family watching me open up gifts. It would be a nightmare for me.

Last Christmas I didn't sleep all night, and cried a ton before before going downstairs really late after my family kept yelling up at me.

sublyp wrote:Last Christmas I didn't sleep all night, and cried a ton before before going downstairs really late after my family kept yelling up at me.

Yeah, I can relate to that. I can sleep and all, I just feel like I shouldn't be in there for Christmas. I feel like I'm a disappointment to everyone with my emotionless ways. I get yelled at a lot too. My parents seem like they have no idea what I'm going through, and I hate that. Little do they know every time they yell at me, they're just making it worse. I wish I could leave so bad, but I know I wouldn't be able to survive on my own. Things seem like they're at the worst this point in time.

Had the work Christmas party the other day. One guy tells me I should be smiling. Then he wishes me a merry christmas. I couldn't bring myself to say anything.

Well, I'm about to be a total pollyanna and with you all a Merry Christmas!