Consolidated Swirling Thoughts

I keep thinking, if you could just see me, then everything would be okay. If you could see that I fell and I'm using all my energy to get back up. If you could see my refusal to stay down. If you could see how hard I fight to just be normal, and I don't even think I hit that on a good day.

Then I think, maybe I just imagined this life. This life where I deserved to dream and love and be loved. Maybe I oversold myself. Maybe I am easy to dismiss. Maybe I should just give up.

So I start fighting again.
And give up again.
And start fighting again.

If you could see that I'm not crazy, that I just have a lot to fight for. This is life or death, and the worst kind of death where you have to keep on living, but you're dead inside.

If you could see, you would know why I'm fighting. You would fight with me.

If you could just see me. Then you would understand. And everything would be okay.

Thank you for sharing.

DontMindMe214 wrote:I keep thinking, if you could just see me, then everything would be okay. If you could see that I fell and I'm using all my energy to get back up. If you could see my refusal to stay down. If you could see how hard I fight to just be normal, and I don't even think I hit that on a good day.

Then I think, maybe I just imagined this life. This life where I deserved to dream and love and be loved. Maybe I oversold myself. Maybe I am easy to dismiss. Maybe I should just give up.

So I start fighting again.
And give up again.
And start fighting again.

If you could see that I'm not crazy, that I just have a lot to fight for. This is life or death, and the worst kind of death where you have to keep on living, but you're dead inside.

If you could see, you would know why I'm fighting. You would fight with me.

If you could just see me. Then you would understand. And everything would be okay.

Excellent.

That should be on a plaque.