You know you're AvPD when...

...you rarely venture out of your home because you feel like you're trespassing in your neighborhood and your neighbors know that.

When it takes 3 days to build up the courage to go to the grocery store because everyone is staring at you and you don't belong there or deserve to even eat, and you buy enough meat and fruit and vegetables for your husband and daughter, but not for you because it costs too much and you are not worth it... and then you wonder why you feel so unhealthy and you can't seem to lose weight so you blame the depression meds and then..... Oh My God now you spoke to the cashier and she thinks you are stupid! ...Oh crap, you forgot to buy milk but you are too embarrassed to go back in because everyone will think you are an idiot so you decide to stop at the gas station for milk but then you drive past it because you forgot and then you remember but are still too embarrassed from the grocery store to stop at the next one and go in, so you start thinking of what you can cook without using milk.... then you hate yourself because you decide you are an awful cook and you will just start living on cereal because whats the point anyway in cooking if you suck at it.... But you need milk to have cereal! Life sucks and you suck at life.

When you spend a bunch of money on minutes for your phone, then you realize you bought them all for absolutely no reason.

When someone says an innocent comment, but you think, just maybe, they meant something mean or negative by it, and you're forever convinced that that person doesn't really like you that much.

When the question you're most frequently asked is, "Why are you so quiet?" or "Why don't you ever talk?"

When summer's no longer that cool cause you know you're not going to be doing cool stuff or out enjoying the weather anyway.

P0ppy wrote:When someone says an innocent comment, but you think, just maybe, they meant something mean or negative by it, and you're forever convinced that that person doesn't really like you that much.

Happens to me all the time

P0ppy wrote:When the question you're most frequently asked is, "Why are you so quiet?" or "Why don't you ever talk?"

Yes and then I feel like such a weirdo

P0ppy wrote:When summer's no longer that cool cause you know you're not going to be doing cool stuff or out enjoying the weather anyway.

100% agree *sighs* God do we suck or what??

...when you say your gonna go jogging today and it never happens, but there's always tomorrow lol yeah right

...you would fake a suicide attempt to avoid a social situation.

it's what I did!!

DING - you win! Beats Grandma dying, easily...

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scoutshouse wrote:DING - you win! Beats Grandma dying, easily...

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Who? are you talking to me about faking a suicide attempt?

Haha well yeah, I overdosed on 23 pills of 10mg lexapro.
I hate school so much, usually I hide in my closet for 10 hours and pretend i'm at school. I also overdose on laxatives to give myself diarrhea and convince my mom i'm sick. Most of the time, I lock myself in my room that my mom has to bang on for HOURS to try to get it to open. One time when I didn't respond to my mom's screams, my brother kicked my door, hammered the doorknob, and punched it repeatedly until it finally broke down. Lol, my mom was about to call the police because she thought I killed myself. They found me lying on my bed though, and didn't do anything after that. They just wanted to make sure I was okay (ugh, annoying much?)
Well anyway, my absences got so out of hand (48.5 days missed freshman year, 51.5 days sophomore year) that I got transferred to an outpatient program for school refusal that I ABSOLUTELY HATED! WTF are they thinking to send me to this outpatient program that resembles school exactly!? No sh'it I'm going to avoid that too. I thought I could be absent as many times as I wanted to, but I previously missed 2-3 days and if I missed one more day, I'll be kicked out of the program and be forced to go back to school. I sure as hell didn't want to go to school, but I didn't want to go to the program either. So yeah, I took the pills and ended up in the hospital for 4 days, then I transferred to the psych ward for 11 days (WOOT! At least I didn't have to go to school, AM I RIGHT?!? ) Now I'm at an outpatient program for Anxiety/OCD that's way easier; it's only 6 hours a day. I'm only staying in this program because it's better than going to school. I'm getting discharged tomorrow, and it's summer break for school! WOOT! I won't be leaving my house AT ALL this summer!

In total I have missed 138 days of school Freshman year through Sophomore year. I have missed 2 entire months of school being in a mental hospital, which adds 40 days to 51.5 days, making 89.5 days missed sophomore year. Hahaha! Can anyone beat my record for days missed in school?! I'm good at what I do!

...when you only go to get your mail at midnight to avoid being seen by cars, and when cars DO pass, you dart into your house until they leave!

...when you only leave your room at 3am to avoid being around your family!

...when you can't check or respond to your emails due to crippling anxiety!

...when you only leave your house 1-3 times a month!

...when you planed to cook yourself some dinner at 6 PM but then rather stay in your room and starve until 10 PM because some people are in the kitchen. (*sigh*)

I wanted to say I love this list. It makes me laugh every time I check for new entries and I am sometimes surprised when I realize a statement is true for myself as well.

FlyingRabbit wrote:...when you planed to cook yourself some dinner at 6 PM but then rather stay in your room and starve until 10 PM because some people are in the kitchen. (*sigh*)

Hahaha! This is the story of my LIFE living at home!!

Here's one.....You made over 100 friends this week. But they're all cicadas.