by MentalMint » Sat Oct 25, 2014 4:46 am
Okay so I have been trying to do some research about what I thought were me having staring spells, but I found out that that is something different than what I have been experience, but I very vaguely remember my doctor telling me the staring thing was linked to ADHD (which I have a sever case of) when I was really little. Basically I get racing thoughts all the time really fast. I jokingly call it brain diarrhea sometimes because it is just all these ideas exploding out at one time. Sometimes though when the racing thoughts are at their peak, it all just shuts down and I become still in the position I was in, like a statue. My heart rate drops, my breathing nearly comes to a halt, my vision blurs, sometimes my ears ring, all thought stops, my head is empty, and I just stand there not blinking. I have taught myself to snap out of them (and I found some ways to trigger them on my own), but before that I would be stuck in one place for hours, until somebody would say "Are you okay?" or wave their hand in front of my face and i would snap out of it with a start, which often prompted people to try and startle me out of them back then. I usually keep memory of what goes on around me when I am in a staring spell, but no thoughts occur. Occasionally it will happen when I am walking and continue to slowly shamble in one direction, there have been instances where I follow a group of people, followed a line (like painted on the road for example) or just follow another path such as a sidewalk, but most of the time I just shamble forward until I hit something or stop walking just before hitting something. Before I learned to snap out of them on my own, sometimes I would moan softly trying to communicate what was happening. It is very much like a 'zombie' except without the urge to nom on people's brains. Sometimes I worry I will wander somewhere i am not supposed to be, like somebodies house or into traffic, as I have wandered pretty far in this state before and had to find my way home. This is why I want to research more about it, that an curiosity. I have heard this has to due with sever ADHD, but I do not really know. Does anybody know where I can find more information?