Does this mean I have AsPD?

Does this sound like I have Anti-Social Personality Disorder?

Ok well I'm 16 and a very anxious person and I tend to get worried really easily. I tend to obsess over things and when I focus on something, I keep going on about it. I'm afraid of a lot of things and I have extreme phobias (flying, bees/wasps, heights etc.). I'm extremely self-obsessed in a negative way and I need constant reaasurance as I second guess myself a lot and I'm extremely insecure. I have been researching sociopaths in an attempt to find out and whenever I try to tell myself that I am one, my mind won't accept it and I feel worried that I might be one. I read that you can turn into a sociopath over time and it's making me feel really anxious about it. I was bullied really badly for 5 years and it left me feeling depressed and suicidal but I was afraid of the pain and I didn't want to die. I love attention and I used to bite my sister's fingers when she was younger because I was jealous of the attention she was getting.

Also I have an very short temper and when I get angry, I say things that I don't mean but sometimes I don't feel guilty about saying them (I've told my parents that I wished they would die in a car crash... etc.) but I sometimes I start crying because the thought of my parents dying makes me feel awful. When I saw that people can turn into sociopaths, I felt tears in my eyes because I really don't want to be a sociopath but sometimes I just don't feel things and I get worried that I haven't felt guilty in the past. I feel detached from my emotions but it's like I put a wall up to hold them back. When I have crushes on people, I fall for their personalities very quickly and I tend to fall for them hard and I end up blushing around them and getting really nervous around them so I do have strong feelings for them. I don't have to think about how I act around others, I just act how I do but I tend to be really quiet. I have extreme stage fright and I'm extremely sensitive to criticism and I tend to cry when someone really insults me or says that they don't like me.

Does this sound like a sociopath because I really feel worried over this and I just keep thinking I am because I do lie about things, I sometimes feel detached from my emotions, I'm very self-obsessed, I'm aggressive when I'm angry, I can say horrible stuff to people and not feel bad afterwards, I like getting what I want, I'm intelligent, I can get annoyed easily, I can be arrogant at times, I get bored really easily but once I focus on something I'm obsessive about it and I can be quite impulsive. I also love watching things burn and am fascinated by fire but I have never set fires or been in trouble with the law. I have stolen a few things but I rarely ever do it. I love animals and I'm good with children and I really want to have kids. I want to be loved by somebody but since I've been obsessed by this thought, it's all I've been able to think about.

Also I've been through this before where I thought I was a sociopath and it's making me wonder whether I am or not if it keeps coming back.

Thank you for reading this and I'm sorry if it's really long.

Hi MollySmith123, and welcome.

Although there are a couple of things you have described that might be described as "antisocial", nothing in there suggests sociopathy or personality disorder status, as far as I see.

I'm sure others here will give you some constructive and helpful advice.

WichitaLineman wrote:Although there are a couple of things you have described that might be described as "antisocial", nothing in there suggests sociopathy or personality disorder status, as far as I see.

Agree.

WichitaLineman wrote:I'm sure others here will give you some constructive and helpful advice.

Your way of saying be nice?

Nothing the least, Molly. You sound perfectly normal, esp. for a 16 year old.

The phobias are usually the most stubborn things to stick around well into adulthood, however you can do a lot to overcome them: i used to have really bad acrophobia (fear of heights) as a child, until i started to climb every available surface just to get rid of it. Now i'm a pretty good climber with a fear of heights, the only difference is that now i start to feel sick a few hundred feet above my initial limits.
Entomophobia (repulsion of insects) is something i never managed to get rid off fully, but i'm okay with a few certain species (wasps, spiders, bees, dragonflies).

MollySmith123 wrote:Does this sound like I have Anti-Social Personality Disorder?

No.

yes it does go find an tall building clib it and the fastest way down is also the cure for your condition

The only way to tell for sure is to take a dessert spoon and place it into your anus. If you cough then you're a psychopath. Let us all know how it goes. Good luck.

justonemoreperson wrote:The only way to tell for sure is to take a dessert spoon and place it into your anus. If you cough then you're a psychopath. Let us all know how it goes. Good luck.

You're very funny...

I thought this was a troll thread to be honest.

How could someone with all that anxiety, insecurity and fear honestly think they might be a sociopath...

I'm not making any judgement calls until the results of the spoon test come back.