A little more than a year ago when I was 14 years old(now i am 15 going on 16)I was 5 feet 4 and 120 pounds. I started calling myself fat, rubbing my stomach and wishing to be thin although all my friends told me i was skinny and that i absolutly didnt need to lose weight. I started comparing myself to everyone and slowly but surely I started cutting desserts. By the time summer of 2004 came I was 5 feet 7 and 118 pounds. I was eating alright but excercising compulsivly and felt guilty for everything. By the time september came I was 108 pounds. I started throwing my lunches away at school and rumors spread that i was anorexic because i was too thin and had lost a lot of weight. By October I no longer had my periods. My weight varried with struggle bettween 108 and 105 for a few months. In january I started making myself throw up every night for 2 months. In march I was 99 pounds and 5 feet 7. Everytime I would stand up I would be very dizzy. I would do 250 sit ups every night and run 1 hour on place. I hadnt been taking any milk anymore and although my parents saw the many signs they didnt know it until my best friend told her moom and she called my mom. When my parents found out, unfortunetly they felt blammed but as you all know it is no ones fault. We didnt chose to have this damn disease. Finally In April I entered the hospital anda came out last week at 112 pounds which isnt my healthy weight but they ask my to at least maintain that. It is very hard and is a huge struggle these days but at least i still meet my dietition, therapist, medical doctor and psycologist. I am working at my best and sometimes i feel like slipping back into my old habits forever but i try not too. I do my best to stay positive as you should all. It might take time but we can all get through this.
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