I think i am beginning to show symptoms

I look and feel skinny. I go to school and people call me ugly and fat, i weigh 140 and i am 15. I have some chub but i do not care. I starve myself anyways. I eat only when i start to not be able to think and i get a migraine or i feel like i am about to pass out. I do not really think i am anorexic but i get 400-500 calories a day out of the 1500 that is needed. I feel like i am fat sometimes because i have a large frame skeleton but i get over it.

I just want to stay this size forever and not eat anymore. When i do eat though, i feel so much shame.

Sorry you're going through this. If you want to find out if you have an eating disorder, go to the doctor. You are not underweight my friend. It is normal to have days that you think you look skinny and then days you think you look fat. That's part of being a girl and with the stress that the world puts on us concerning our frame and our weight. If you think you are struggling, you may benefit from going to the doctor. I have anorexia for 10 years now and it's better to get help in the beginning rather than waiting til you pass out or need a feeding tube. Please take care of yourself.

XX Tinkerbell XX

Tinkerbell - I don't think you need to be underweight to have an eating disorder per se. I'm 112 at 5'3, not underweight yet, and my therapist says I have Anorexia and qualify for an eating disorder. I think when there is a disruption in eating and perception of yourself you have an eating disorder.

OP - It sounds like you are okay with your weight and self-image. I think you should just keep eating regularly, though not overly. Then you can sustain your current weight. The people that say you're fat are just jerks, please try to ignore them. They are not worth it.

MMonrooe, so I think I do have an eating disorder then even tho I weigh 93 pounds which is good for my height.

Hi guys.

Glad to see you Tink. Been wondering where you were-- missed you.

I think the thing that the doctors would tell you is that it is not as much about the weight as it is about the food issues and the eating issues. Do you have disordered eating patterns or habits? Do you have problems maintaining healthy eating habits-- ie: no binging, purging, withholding food, over exercising, taking excessive amounts of laxatives, diuretics, or diet pills. It you do any of these things you likely have a problem.

It is like I say on here all of the time. It is not really about what you are eating-- it is about what is eating you. It really is not about your weight either, that is only something to detect how far you are letting the illness get you down. It really is about how deep the issues go-- period.

Sorry I havent been on here much. I go to groups and therapeutic meetings and lately every break I get, I been going into the pool and exercising. Today I feel fat. I ate a yogurt for breakfast tho so thats good. I am frustrated because I have taken laxatives to poop ever since I was 10 and now that Im not allowed to take them any more, I haven't been able to poop. I even ate prunes and drank cranberry juice but that isnt helping. A meeting is going to start now so I must go. I will check in later. How is everyone else doing?

XX Tinkerbell XX