i need to kno i am not alone

I have had an eating Disorder for as long as i can remember alot of my eating disorder stems from trauma. i have just recently started reaching out for help. My family and doctors all say that i am severly underweight but all i see is fat and ugly. I try so hard not to restrict but when i do eateven just a small bite i feel so sick to my stomach it is unbelievable. so i just go back to restricting. I want to get better i am so tired of being this way i want control again I just dont know how to do it I have recently contacted a place called adams center I am really hoping they r going to be able to help me work through some of my trauma and fears. hopefully one day this will all be something of my past. does anyone have any insite? stories? sujestions? anything?

Hi, lilpeanut1807! You are not alone, I used to try to control my life and pain by controlling how thin I was too. Things got better when I found another outlet for my feelings, I hope that place can help you and you have this forum too, now. How are you, how is your life?

my life rt now is real crazy dont know what im doing really just left my boyfriend moved in with my mom on top of having a eating disorder i have severe conversion disorder so im in real rough shape. my life is in total crazyness all the time i most of the time i feel like i have no comtrol over my anorexia i cant eat i try but it just doesnt work. life is just a mess. stress isnt helping me any eathier im sure. other then being really weak and sick im doing ok.

I'm sorry your life is so stressful. You're getting it together, though, don't forget that. How are you today?

im doing ok today trying very hard to gain weight and eat a lil more every day

Is the Adams Center place helping? Is there anything that you love to do, anything that makes you happy?

i am not sure if there going to help or not wasnt able to go to my apt had a major sezier so i had to reschedule for next week my health is now really bad unfortunitly they dont know y i had the sezier AND IT had stroke like symptoms that r still with me so hopefully things willn get better soon.but im trying to eat and gain the weight i need to. the docs said my electrolytes r gd which is a plus. ill keep all updated

Oh, I'm sorry you're going through this, honey. You're being strong by doing what you can to gain weight and get healthier, not everyone could do it in a time like this, but you are.

thank u so much for ur support yeah it has not been easy at all trying to adapt to this new way of life isnt easy for me. but im trying been trying to eat and when i cant been trying to dringk carnation instant breakfast to try to stay strong.i have the will power this timei will get back in remission lol.

Yes you will! I've never heard of carnation instant breakfast. You're working really hard