Hi all!

I just wanted to ask if anyone else gets to feeling like I do sometimes. I'm generally a calm guy. I was a pretty angry young man but that anger is mostly gone. However, when I do get truly angry, I can feel it in my brain. It reminds me of the time when I did special mushrooms when I was young and this weird sensational shock would flow over my brain. Except this one feels more like something snapped and it seems like I can actually feel a shock of electricity in my brain. That's when I know I'm going to go bat **** angry. Immediately after that, I can feel my eyeballs vibrating. At least it feels like they are. Usually when these episodes come in I tend to throw objects, resort to heavy verbal abuse and occasional violence. I haven't been violent toward humans during these episodes for a long time but I did shove my dog really hard a few months back.

Not quite sure what triggers the anger. Sometimes it's something trivial like a bag of crisps that refuses to open, other times it takes my fiance 30 minutes of nagging to bring it out.

I understand exactly how you feel. For me, I can feel rage boiling up inside of me and then I will feel like I am going to explode, and I too throw things, kick things, sometimes I have even taken anger out on myself such as bashing my head against a wall, etc. Sometimes I also have these moments of intense energy when I am angry, and usually I will almost feel a rush of excitement at the same time. It's a horrifying feeling, especially when I am in a fight, because any little thing can set me off. I am trying to control it now, but it is really hard for me to keep my anger down once someone has set me off. Anyways, I am always here to talk if you need someone to talk to.

-Anne Marie