Loosing the fight

I'm not 20-30 I'm only 19 but, I'm sure that people out there will criticize me. Though lately, I'm having trouble to control myself. This isn't new, I've always had anger-problems. I'm pretty good at controlling myself, but lately it's been a problem. I find myself getting mad at things that are so insignificant it's troubling. Throughout my life I've found ways to "cool" myself. First it was video games, than cigarettes, I've went as far as smoking weed on a regular basis so things don't seem so stressful. Now, it's at the point were I can't sleep, because I'm mad. I don't even know what at. I have holes in my walls from loosing my temper at something as small as losing a lighter. I live with my girlfriend of 5 years and I find myself getting agitated at things she does that other people would dismiss entirely. I'm afraid that I'll lose control of my self and do something stupid, Like hurt her. I know this sounds all melodramatic, but I don't know what to do. I don't know what I'm doing anymore.......

You sound like I was a few years ago, and I had to get prescribed something to take my anger away. If you feel up for it, then go to see your local doctor. A simple thing as an anti-depressant is good for lowering the level of anger in people, but you obviously have to want to change your behaviour at the same time too. Did anything major actually change recently to make your anger more intense?

Kevin

ThouNameless wrote:I'm afraid that I'll lose control of my self and do something stupid, Like hurt her. I know this sounds all melodramatic, but I don't know what to do. I don't know what I'm doing anymore.......

That's not at all melodramatic buddy it's serious, my brother used to punch holes in the walls and write crazy things allover the room he had anger problems too and that was really really scary he even hurt my other brother bad and dosent remember it. Honestly I think what stirs you up worse is being in a relationship seriusly because if just a lighter can trigger you I can imagine how bad a girl could trigger you.. seems to be you need some solitude space - take Chuckys advice though it's all ways good in my opinion.