A bit over two years ago, I moved to a small town in a regionally distant area from the city I grew up in. At first I thought people here wouldn't be so unpleasant to interact with. Was I wrong. Not being a local, I am consistently scrutinized for any action I make, word I utter or expression I make. And news really does travel faster in a town in contrast to the vast, impersonal city life I took for granted. Modern technology only exacerbates the spread of news, not to mention the petty, simple interests people seem to invest in this area.
The more I have adapted to become aloof to their gawking, the further they've persisted to berate me until they can produce a reaction of gloom out of me to seemingly prove their prowess and take that to deem themselves superior to me. I've resorted to becoming a shut in. My roommate goes out to do the groceries and I order other products online. I have experience the "being watched" hunch in the past, but this feeling is more specific, and much more overwhelming. It makes me feel caged being out there more than these four walls ever will.