I feel like I'm not good at anything. I always seem to make mistakes at work and I feel like I don't have any common sense. What brought this on? I work at a country club and earlier this morning I was serving a member and for some reason the computer said that the holders of the account did not have "signing privileges". So I told her politely that it was probably just a mistake in accounting and to talk to them. I really tried to play it down. I told her with two of her other friends at the table. She was fine and really nice about it. No prob. Her husband came in later with one person and I told him the same thing because I didn't know if his wife told him. So later he finds me and tells me that he didn't appreciate me telling him that in front of another member.
I don't know where my common sense went and why I did that. I should have pulled him aside to tell him. How stupid of me! I thought he would be fine because his wife was. Nope. I apologized to him three times and told him that it wasn't my intention to embarrass him and that I was REALLY REALLY sorry. I really tried to play it down when I told him in the first place too like with his wife. I'm worried he is going to go talk to the GM and I might get fired if he is really mad. He may be on the board of the club but I'm not sure. I'm part time so I'm on the expendable side I think.
The problem is, this time I think I made a mistake that might really get me into trouble. I normally make small ones like not putting some food in correctly, or forgetting something. I feel like my boss at work doesn't have any confidence in me because of this. I just feel really inferior to everyone else at my job and the harder I try to be better like them, the more mistakes I seem to make. I don't want to be like that. But I am. I feel like if I get fired I will be letting my fiancee down because it's hard enough to get by with our bills and we both work. If I lose my job I will just be causing problems and it would be all my fault too.
I just never feel like I'm good enough and that I'm a real ditz and loser. I was so upset when I left work that I think I forgot to clock out too. Great. I feel like a waste of time and space sometimes and I hate that feeling. I just feel like I want to crawl into a corner where no one notices me. I don't always feel like this. It is only when I make mistakes at work.
I'm accident prone and forgetful. I don't know what to do.