There is this great awesome guy online that I talk to once in a while that I REALLY like. I mean, he is so different. He is smart, cute, funny, nice. I am having the hardest time talking with him because I have anxiety disorder, and some level of bdd. I would love it if I were "hot" so I could show off for him and make him want me. I can't even show my picture because I'm not ugly, i'm attractive but my pictures are horrible. How do I keep his attention? I really respect and like him and I want him in my life somehow. I want to meet him one day. With him, I'm so embarrassed about my issues too, whereas I usually don't care what people think. i don't want him to know i'm "wierd". you know what i mean? i'm not saying peopel with this stuff is weird, i'm just embarrassed.