I am a pansexual zoophile

I'm a young 20 year old woman. Since I was young, around 9 I've been attracted to animals emotionally, romantically, and sexually. Is this normal? Is it wrong? I love animals as much as I love people, and I would never hurt one, but I've had sexual contact with a dog once when I was 14 and home alone at a relative's house. It wasn't forced, and I'm embarrassed to admit it, but it happened by accident while masturbating as I had the door closed, but didn't close it all the way. I don't know how old the dog would be by now, but he was in his late teenage dog years. At first I was nervous and wanted to stop, but the pleasure was incredible so I let the dog continue. The dog had gotten an erection from it so I jerked him off because he was a big dog and while he was very smart and gentle with me, I didn't want to risk seriously injuring myself.

The dog was very happy after our sexual play was over, and seemed to want more but I was too tired and exhausted to let him go on. He'd lick at my ears, gentle nibble my nose, or lick at my mouth as the days went on by. We were already close, but after the sexual activity that took place the dog became more affectionate and I realized it wasn't just the sexual activity that I loved, but the dog too. He didn't even want to mate with other dogs and from time to time become sexually interested in me.

Ever since that day I've felt really guilty like I did something wrong and should be ashamed of myself. I used to be very suicidal over it and cry myself to sleep seeing myself as a freak and an abuser and scared thinking what would happen if anyone I knew found out I'm a zoo. I still feel guilty over it, struggle with on/off depression, and I haven't been to that house since because my parents can't afford the long road trip and I'm unemployed. I've had this weird longing to see the dog again and be with him.

I also have another problem: I'm sexually attracted to dolphins, pigs, and horses too. Horses turn me on the most and their smell gets me aroused so badly that I have the urge to masturbate. I don't act out on it, but its becoming bothersome and I don't know if I can even stop it or not.. I feel weird for what I am, and it hurts living in a society where people you know would disown you and call you a sicko for being a zoophile...I struggle between accepting myself for what I am and hating myself for being a zoophile and what I did.

Can anyone help me? It would be much appreciated.

That must be a really difficult paraphilia to live with. You asked, "Is this normal? Is it wrong?" I really don't have an answer for you because I'm not sure. Certainly society would have us believe it's wrong - zoophilia is a relatively well-known and widely stygmatized paraphilia, as I'm sure you're aware. Try not to hate yourself though! Society may not think so, but those of us with paraphilias are human too. I hope you find some peace and that someone with more insight can help you. Do you think that you feel a romantic attraction to that dog? Have you ever felt any attraction toward other humans or has it always been animals only? What do you think it is about horses in particular that attracts you?

--Basilisk

I'm pansexual, so yeah, I like people too, I just also happen to like animals. I'm currently in an online relationship with someone who shares the same paraphilia as me (we plan on meeting soon), but its hard as I'm into polygamy and him not so much but would do anything for me to be happy, and obviously I can't choose one over the other, but I can't help but feel romantically attracted to the dog, he's the most sweetest dog I've known.

@Basilisk: I find a horse's strength, gentleness, and their manes attractive. I find more beauty in animals then I do people. I don't mean to offend anyone, but I find humanity to be evil because of all the wrong in the world that occurs that's worse then what happens in nature.

Eheh, yeah, I should have seen the "pansexual" and gotten that you like people too, but somehow I didn't. D'oh. XD It's good that you've found someone who shares your paraphilia - I think that can be really beneficial toward self-acceptance and such.

Hmm, I've lived with horses all my life, so I'm no stranger to their beauty. They're fantastic animals and more "human," I think, than any other animal I've encountered. As to finding humanity evil - that's not an undue sentiment. But in proportion to their capacity for evil, humans are capable of great good and compassion, I think.

I don't think my first post went through, let me try this again lol.

Hey there. It's been a long while since I've posted a response here. But your thread intrigued me as I am also the same way you are.

I also happen to be an activist for the zoo community complete with blogs, youtube videos, educating people and the like.

I'm also in a relationship, not online but in person. I've been attracted to animals since around 8 or so. I've been in the community for about 10 years now and I am open to the people around me about who I am.

1. You are not normal. Normalcy implies that the majority agrees, participates or are zoos themselves. Zoosexuals are not a majority, therefore not normal. However don't let that get you down as being normal isn't good or bad, it just is. There is no logical reason to want to be normal other than to fit in with most everybody...and frankly, who wants to do that?

2. Is it wrong? Well that is debatable. Depends on the situation. Question is, why would you look to others to tell you if you are wrong or right? I suppose your first objective would be to ask yourself is your dog in any pain because of this? Is he happy and healthy and well taken care of? DId you have to force him to do anything? Did you manipulate or coerce him in any way? If you are ethical about it, then no I personally don't see it as wrong.

Wrong is making him do something that he doesn't want to do. Wrong is manipulating him with food to get him to perform. Wrong is neglecting to care for him properly....I could go on with this.

So with that said, if you have any questions that I can further help you with, feel free to contact me on yahoo messenger or AIM as zooliberation. Also google zooliberation and all of my stuff should pop up.

shadowfangns wrote:I don't think my first post went through, let me try this again lol.

Hey there. It's been a long while since I've posted a response here. But your thread intrigued me as I am also the same way you are.

I also happen to be an activist for the zoo community complete with blogs, youtube videos, educating people and the like.

I'm also in a relationship, not online but in person. I've been attracted to animals since around 8 or so. I've been in the community for about 10 years now and I am open to the people around me about who I am.

1. You are not normal. Normalcy implies that the majority agrees, participates or are zoos themselves. Zoosexuals are not a majority, therefore not normal. However don't let that get you down as being normal isn't good or bad, it just is. There is no logical reason to want to be normal other than to fit in with most everybody...and frankly, who wants to do that?

2. Is it wrong? Well that is debatable. Depends on the situation. Question is, why would you look to others to tell you if you are wrong or right? I suppose your first objective would be to ask yourself is your dog in any pain because of this? Is he happy and healthy and well taken care of? DId you have to force him to do anything? Did you manipulate or coerce him in any way? If you are ethical about it, then no I personally don't see it as wrong.

Wrong is making him do something that he doesn't want to do. Wrong is manipulating him with food to get him to perform. Wrong is neglecting to care for him properly....I could go on with this.

So with that said, if you have any questions that I can further help you with, feel free to contact me on yahoo messenger or AIM as zooliberation. Also google zooliberation and all of my stuff should pop up.

He's not my dog, he was my aunt's and that's also why I guess I feel guilty about it because I feel like I've done what is called fence hopping in the zoo community.

IMO, I don't think it should be wrong if the animal decides to get sexual and the human lets them, because even if the animal can't say yes or no, to me that's still consent even though consent is mainly a human invention. If a human were to make a move on the animal and attempt to grope them, the animal wouldn't attack without reason to and if they attack, its because they're feeling threatened and that the human is a threat to them.

Is it normal? Of course not.

Wrong? So many people would think so. But no. Some people cry the authority card. But honestly, and yes i've watched lots of zoophile videos (they get me going lol).. Those dogs never look happier than when their female owner lets them put it in. Dogs don't view sex as sacred like our society does. They do it because they want to and can't be emotionally harmed by it.

Many people would think it is just "sick". But that is an emotional appeal. Not a feeling based in logic.
I'm not sorry if that offends anyone. it's the truth.

As I believe it bestiality is the sadistic sex with animals, IE harming them. You love them and it's hence zoophilia not bestiality.

Disclaimer:
(Because society is still based on christian dark ages morality, it may be illegal to have sex with animals where you live)

Welcome, lovingpegasister.

I would say: define 'normal' and define 'wrong'.

I honestly can't picture it myself. I break out in hives when I pet my sister's dog. Allergies. Being within 5 ft of horses and elephants at the circus for over half an hour wreaks havoc on my asthma. I have occasionally medicated my allergies to go horseback riding, which I do enjoy. Horses are lovely, but again, I don't find them sexy. Just lovely in the way that oceans, flowers and music are lovely.

Logically, it doesn't sound harmful, if that's what you're into, and the animal is strong enough to knock you down if s/he isn't interested. Consent is important. If you find this romantic, I guess you're not forcing the animals in any way.

What are the odds of catching some weird disease?

As far as your relationship with your aunt's dog, you should definitely keep that to yourself. Most people are not as open-minded about zoophilia as the commenters on this forum. Your aunt could cause you serious grief over this. Look at the grief that gays and single mothers go through. Zoophilia is usually held up by people who oppose family models outside of Xtian norms as the last and 'worst' step in their slippery-slope arguments that herald the 'end of family values and civilization as we know it'. First, working women who delay having kids. Then promiscuity. Then homosexuality. Then group marriages and incest. Then pedoplhilia. Then zoophilia, which they refer to as 'bestiality'. It's not my argument. The only sexual behaviour on that list that's any of my business is pedophilia, bc it's rape, and it's devastating to its victims. I couldn't care less about anything else people want to do while they're nekked. But the 'end of family values' argument is an argument that's used to justify all kinds of hate crimes. For your own safety, be careful who you discuss this preference with.

I found this video totally by accident. I watched in amazement for the lolz. You may find it ?arousing? Fun? Check it out. It demonstrates that some animals enjoy cross-species rumpy-bumpy, too. LMAO at the look on the lion's face while it watched the cross-species humping.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5vQ-bqC7 ... creen&NR=1