Xena's Journal

I feel better today. I got a nice long uninterrupted sleep.

I forgot that I get moody when my sleep cycles start to reverse themselves. I fight it bc I have to stay on my son's schedule. I end up staying up later and later and getting up at the same time every day. After about a week I'm a bit of a wreck. Then I don't have much choice but to go with it. I pull an all nighter, then start going to bed in the afternoon and waking up about 3 am. Then I have a few weeks of bliss bc I'm going to bed around eleven and getting up at 5 or 6 like I'm supposed to. Then it's back to late nights, early mornings, sleep deprivation and moodiness. Blah.

However, it's probably not worth discussing my suspected sleep disorder here. It's a mild consequence of my ADD. If I can find something natural to take for it, I might consider it if it's not too expensive. Otherwise, I'd rather not end up a dope fiend. Some of these people I read about on the ADD forum are going through hell with their meds. I want no part of that.

Yesterday was a diet& exercise disaster. The cold made me SO hungry. I didn't work out, but that's ok bc that's what I had planned for. I only did about half the housework I'd planned on, tho.

I ate:

1 Lunchable (a prepackaged mini meal with 9 crackers, 9 slices of cheese & 9 slices of kielbossa)
1 mini kitkat bar--about 1/4 of the regular size bar
4 oz. mandarins
Instant Breakfast shake in 10 oz. milk, no yogurt
2 cups of coffee

1 McD's cheeseburger Happy Meal with chocolate milk and 2 oz. yogurt
(yes I ate the fries this time )
3 Oreos

2 glasses of water
no vitamins



EEK!

Today was a little more productive. It's just after 10pm and I beat myself up with exercise. I had my breakfast shake and litre of coffee. I'm not so sure I want to eat today. I'm kinda bunged up from yesterday's overindulgence.






Mood music for today:



^ I wonder how much Queen and their production crew paid those girls? lolol Yes I wear clothes when I ride my bike.

I ended up eating a little after all. It was 2:30 in the morning and my tummy was keeping me awake.

In addition to the coffee & breakfast shake I ate:
breaded filet of sole
about 1 cup of diced carrots & peas (cooked from frozen)

I didn't get to bed until 4:45. I've been up since 8. We'll see how much of a workout I'm able to do today.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WC5FdFlUcl0

I passed out right after my son's scout meeting last night and did nothing all day before that. Too tired. I hope I fixed my schedule. That is the most annoying thing about dieting. An empty tummy keeps me awake at night and sleep deprivation wrecks my functioning

I'll probably have to settle for half a workout again today bc I'm sore. I tripped and mangled my hand and threw out my stupid trick shoulder again. There's a weird ache in my spine and I have no clue where it came from. If it doesn't go away by tomorrow I'll go to the doctor about it. I hate that sleep deprivation also makes me clumsy.


Yesterday I ate:
Instant Breakfast shake in 10 oz. of milk
slice of toast, buttered with pb & jam, about a tsp of each
hot buttered chocolate chip muffin
about 6 oz. of mandarins

no coffee
about 2 glasses of water (?)
I can't even remember if I took my vitamins... ... I think it's safe to say I probably didn't.


Yep. Half a workout and laundry today. I feel old and achey. My skin's all dry and the flaky skin draws attention to the little creases on my face that usually aren't noticeable from a foot away. This is probably how I'll look in 10 years. Even my hands are all dry and strangely wrinkled looking.

After I wash my cozy jammies I'll be stepping into the bathtub for a shave. Then moisturizer and exfoliating. I'm not washing off the goo until tomorrow. I hope that works. It's bad enough when I feel old. I'm not old enough to look old yet.



^ Yeah, the vid's a bit of an exaggeration. I'm not feeling that rusty. I'm happy to say that my prune juice treatment was as effective as always. I'm looking forward to the happy ending that will come when I lube up my creaky old skin and work the lazy out of these joints

That scrapyard kinda reminds me of my apartment right now. So much work to do...

Blargh. I must not have been paying attention to where my cursor was when I edited that last comment.

The modifier "creaky old" was supposed to go in front of the word "joints" not "skin." Jeez Louise, I hope my skin never creaks.

Literal leather lady.

I missed yesterday's post. I hope I can still remember what I ate. I was too sore to work out again. Likewise today, but less so. I think this kink in my neck will work itself out by tomorrow. My shoulder is back to normal, so no harm done.

I went over to luna's site to pass on a message to somebody who was banned bc one of the twats who got the AsPD forum locked down told the mods she was an alt. She's not. I pay attention to these things bc I'm doing character research for my SF. (I write but I haven't published any of my work yet ) I got a little side tracked over there.

MY GODS! What a freakshow! Great example of what the internet turns into without mods around to keep the peace. Random people just show up and post their dick pics in the middle of threads for the lulz. Some bizarre OCD bible thumper jacks threads with pages and pages of scripture while everybody taunts him with sex and gore. There are a dozen AllanZeds and some weirdo who calls himself Site Admin who mods like Jack frikkin Sparrow. O Captain my Captain... ROFLMFAO. Those people are insane.



And in the middle of it all, the Baby Narcs are still weaving their Bad Girl fantasy narratives.

Teh drama



^^ Song of the day. For the Baby Narcs

I'll try to remember yesterday's food in my next post.

will i be in the book?

im just kidding.

btw, i noticed you really dont eat much at all...im a bit surprised you still struggle with weight!
i put 3 teaspoons of jam on my toast not only one, haha

Yes. My sister eats about the same amount of food my son eats. He's 6' tall and 140 lbs. She's 5'5" and obese. Like well over 300 lbs. She shops at large men's stores for her clothes bc they don't make big enough women's sizes.

This is what I do to just not be obese. Forget about thin. I have to nearly kill myself to be thin.

Xena wrote:I missed yesterday's post. I hope I can still remember what I ate. I was too sore to work out again. Likewise today, but less so. I think this kink in my neck will work itself out by tomorrow. My shoulder is back to normal, so no harm done.

I went over to luna's site to pass on a message to somebody who was banned bc one of the twats who got the AsPD forum locked down told the mods she was an alt. She's not. I pay attention to these things bc I'm doing character research for my SF. (I write but I haven't published any of my work yet ) I got a little side tracked over there.

MY GODS! What a freakshow! Great example of what the internet turns into without mods around to keep the peace. Random people just show up and post their dick pics in the middle of threads for the lulz. Some bizarre OCD bible thumper jacks threads with pages and pages of scripture while everybody taunts him with sex and gore. There are a dozen AllanZeds and some weirdo who calls himself Site Admin who mods like Jack frikkin Sparrow. O Captain my Captain... ROFLMFAO. Those people are insane.



And in the middle of it all, the Baby Narcs are still weaving their Bad Girl fantasy narratives.

Teh drama



^^ Song of the day. For the Baby Narcs

I'll try to remember yesterday's food in my next post.

it's not so bad