How i beat HOCD, works for any OCD so simple

hi everyone!!! for years i struggled with HOCD, the worst ocd because it directly affects EVERY social interaction you can have, terrible stuff!!! im not going to go into details about it, it would take to long. you know if you have HOCD what its like.

for me, all it took was for me to hit and anxiety and life rock bottom. i was so anxious, so obsessed, every thought was me checking. GAY GHAY GAY NOT GAY OMG GAY was my brain. fking terrible!

i finally convined myself i was a homosexual (lol). i began to become depressed. i could simply not belive that i was straight anymore. so i started looking up online how to accept yourself as a gay person. i was anxious of course, but i sadi to myself "im young, im proboley gay, time to accept it. if im gay the only way ill truly be happy is if i accept it and come to terms with myself"

this is it. its very simple. anxiety only has power if you avoid it. if the fear becomes the GOAL, than the anxiety is powerless.

my method is VERY INVASIVE, VERY HURTFUL, but 100% effective. i am so happy i had HOCD because now my mind is completly open, i have much more control over my OCD in all aspects of life, not just OCD. i know i am normal, and ANY intrusive thought is just a thought, i am a powerful logical being. merely thinking or entertaining thoughts DOES NOT MAKE THEM REALITY.

now i know if your in the hell of OCD, you will be so anxious. but guess what guys. FIGHT It. EMBRACE it. REMEMBER THIS. YO UCANNOT BECOME GAY, ITS GENETIC. THE ULTIMATE FEAR IS BECOMING GAY, BUT YOU CANT BECOME GAY. THIS IS LOGICALLY IMPOSSIBLe. BUT OCD IS NOT LOGCAL.

anyways,back to my story. i was so sad, i thought i was gay, so i tried to accept myself.

i would be walking around in public saying to myself "im gay, and thats allright, i am an awsome person, despite my sexuality" over some months, saying im gay, had no trigger power over me. it was just words. this ultimatly confused me even more, and saying "im straight, evoked FAR more anxiety than saying "im gay". which is pretty funny. even though i could say im gay, i didnt feel gay. i still noticed girls. i was still suffering.

jacking off was an anxiety whirlpool. i read online that you cant know your sexuality from gay porn, so i ruled that out. i instead idd something radical.

this was the ultimate test, my ultiamte demon, my ultimate fear. BUT I PRESERVERED.

i began to masturbate to the thoughts of men i tried to imagine well muscled pecs, there asses. i TRIED TO BECOME AROUSED.

the first few times this was an ANXIETY NIGHTMARE. absoultly hellish, but i persisted. i could not convince myself i was straight, so i assumed i was proboely DEEPLY in the closet. i kept trying. but i could not orgasm, i could not keep an erection. i could not get aroused.

oddly enough girls popped into my head. as soon as i tried to masturbate to guys, girls became the INTRUSIVE Thoughts, suddenly while imagining penis and being unsastisfied, tits were incorperated, and i could orgasm easily.

it was at this moment it was piviotal. this was OCD. plain and simple.

i now had a cure, a very easy one two. i knew anxietty is just a feeling it could not hurt me.

girls are what arouses me, alaways had. so imagineing naked guys really does nothing. no harm no foul.

over time, EVERY time i masturbated i would think of good looking guys, and withen seconds girls would flood into my mind, taking over the gayness, slowly my HOCD dimished.

i faced what i was scared of, i imagined myself having sex with men, TRIED TO ENJOY IT, and failed.

because i am not gay.

nowadays, everytime i get a intrusive male thought while jacking off, i will imagine it, and as quickly as it comes, it goes, and i return to my female fantasy, no anxiety spike no nothing.

my libido is now 100% i look at girls in public and get a woody. life is awsome.

not only that, i know can imagine ANYTHING i want, and not feel anxious. i use to think OMG WHAT IF I KILLED MY CAt, nowi can think about my cat being dead, being eaten, being cut to pieces and not have it make me anxious, in fact the thoughts disgust me, just like thinking about men whiele masturbating. it disgusts me.


to summmarize, beating OCD is very simple, if you put it all on the table.

face what you fear, would it really be all that bad if your gay? not really no, so start imagining yourself as a gay person LET IT GO. once you face what you fear, it becomes nullified.

OCD is NOTHING, its onyl what you let it.

sometimes when im feelign anxious, ill feel my hocd coming back, and instantly my mind says, oh yah your gay you love the c**k, than ill imagine my girlfriends breasts and buh buh HOCD.


it seems hard to do, it was the ABSOLUTE HARDEST THING I EVER HAD TO DO, but FIGHT IT, PERSERVERE. THERE JUST THOUGHTS< LET THEM FLOW FREELY, WHO CARES IF YOU IMAGINE YOUR PENIS IN A MANS ASS, ITS NOT DIFFERENT THAN WATCHING HORSES HAVE SEX ON A FARM, YOUR STRAIGHT NOT GAY, DONT BE AFRAID OF THOUGHTS.

at the very least youll come to the conculsion taht your bi, and not gay, and really that would kick ass, so much sex.

thank you for reading. all i did to beat my HOCD was transcribe the approach anxiety advice i heard a while back. " MAKE GETTING REJECTED BY THE GIRL THE GOAL, AND THEN YOU WILL NOT FEAR REJECTION IF YOU GO UP TO HER AND ASK TO BE REJECTED"

very simple. FACE YOUR ULTIAMTE FEAR, AND WIN IT.

if you hear in your mind "YOUR GAY YOUR GAY. damn right im gay, obviously im a homo look at me im looking at a guys ass!!!!" did you become gay from doing that? my guess is no, and my guess is two seconds later your eyes jumped to the sexy broad walking by.

i can clarifiy if you guys have any questions, but really. MASTER YOUR MINd. MASTER YOUR FEAR.

OCD can be beaten just as any other anxiety. if your scared to get on a plane, FIGHT IT AND GET ON A FKING PLANE, if your scared to drive FIGHT IT AND FKING DRIVE, if your scared to become a homosexual, FIGHT IT AND EMBRACE THE FEAR THAT YOU MIGHT BECOME A HOMOSEXUAL.

saying in your head "IM GAY, does nto make you gay, its just words, you cant lose your straightness."


i am SO HAPPY I HAD HOCD nown that i am through it, i do not dwell on ANY thought, if a thought causes me ANY anxiety or discomfort or i want to stop obsessing about it. i give it attention, i think about it. i imagine what im scared of.

i know ive restate the same thing multiply ways, but the more exmaples the better right?

dont make HOCD some complicated demon, just accept whatever makes you scared. yo ucannot become gay, your born gay. and if you WERE born gay, wouldent you want to know? to live your life happily? (btw i dont give a f*k if this makes you spike, you need to spike, dont even spike just start to accept.)

Hey Justtryintohelp,

Thank you for writing this post! Success stories are always very welcome here and I'm glad you have one to share.

Evol

Your story is a good lesson to us - hocd sufferers. But i have a question and i will be glad if you can read them and answer them /no matter i'm seeing your post 2 years later/
You say you beat your hocd by exposing to your fear of being gay. It is a good method. But tell me - as a hocd sufferer did you have groinal response? Because having it changes this situation a lot! You say you try imagine boys and having sex with them when you masturbate - i try following your example but i have groinal response and this leads me only to... ejaculation, orgasm, more anxious and fear and everything your hocd mind force you to think. Did you encounter that experience on your hocd no matter you're saying you're not...? Do you have idea how this can be done with? How to get it over?

Yeah it sounds really weird, but his theory does work. I did it a different way. When I was with my girlfriend and we started hooking up once, I actually tried to imagine as if I were doing that with a guy. I felt so uncomfortable and it was really hard. Then I kept opening my eyes to look at her and when I realized it was HER, I felt a lot better. If you try and mentally put yourself in those situations, you find out quick how you respond.

The only warning I give is that yeah that showed me "okay I don't want to do that with dudes" but it does not just stop the OCD from intruding your mind. Don't expect it to work as an off switch because there is no off switch with OCD. You won't just magically stop obsessing over "what if you're gay what if you're attracted to men." It still takes time and mental work as well. As everyone says (and really you have to do this) just don't make a big deal out of it. You'll just have to deal with the intrusions and everything but eventually it will fade away.

Jeez that's insane how this works. I tried fantasizing about a good looking dude taking his shirt off, and it was a good moment because my anxiety has lowered a lot so it was perfect to test. Everytime I tried mu mind would transition to making love to women, although the same-sex thoughts came back after. They just sort have diminished in spiking me. Yeah I'd get a groinal response when I tried to get aroused to men, and it bugged me, but eventually it went back to passionately banging a hot blonde but the thoughts are still confusing. I guess this won't go away in one night...