OCD when buy/get new things

Hi to all!
OCD!!! - I have it in various forms, from pure obsessions to obsessions-compulsions. It catch me when I decide to buy or get things, then thought appear that something will happen or I will catch a disease if I buy or get the thing I like. Then I buy other thing that doesn't cause such thought... something that I like less than the first one (for example I decide to buy an object, I go to shop and see the object "A" I want, but!!!!.... a thought appears "something will happen, if I buy this!!!" or "I will catch xxxxx disease if I buy this!!!" then I buy other thing/object "B" which I like less than object "A". It happens every time I get/buy something I like very much. My life is build by my OCD, it controls me with huge power I live life of my OCD, not my life!!!
There are thoughts with "names of diseases or bad things" in my mind, and if I do something (enter through a door, write something or do other activity) while there is such thought in mind, I must do the activity once again... and again while this thought is out of my mind. These thoughts flow in my mind and I try to suppress them which is very heavy for me.
This mad behavior get bigger through years...! I tried with some SSRIs and other anti-depressants but they make me so phlegmatic and had huge side effects, so I stopped taking them!
The OCD thoughts with buying or getting new things also relates to new people and friends I meet:( This is very annoying for me, especially with girlfriends.
I am from Bulgaria, so sorry for my english. I know no one can help me, just wanted to share my problem... problem - no not a problem... it's a nightmare!!!!!!!
Regards,
Nasko

Hi, Nasko! Don't worry, your english is fine. This really must be a nightmare. Do you think you could talk to a psych about it and find out what you can do to make it stop? I used to get these intrusive thoughts when I felt really stressed and getting rid of some of the stress by working out or doing something relaxing helped.
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