by lizyknk » Mon Jan 04, 2010 6:56 pm
I have too been cutting my hair for a long time + it got worse after having my son 6 years ago, the compulsion is so bad i start sweating + know i need to do it otherwise i am so aggitated + snappy. I am constantly touching my hair + its just natural i am doing it now, i am always checking how long it is + for stray long bits that annoy me so badly, i must look crazy. The back of my hair is cut so short it is like i have clippered it, i too dont look in the mirror i will watch t.v. or any other daily activity at home + will get my hair between 2 of my fingers + just chop away, i hate that im doing it when im doing it but cant stop, then when i see the mess i cry. My kids are used to me doing it now + don't bother saying anything as i get angry as i dont know why im doing it myself. Then people say to me oh why have you done that again it was getting to a decent length to style + i get so mad with them like it wasn't me that has done this to myself, because after it doesn't feel like it was me, because i don't wanna do this. People have tryed hiding the scissors + i go + buy some more like a matter of urgency, + i pity the fool that would ever try + take the scissors off me. My doctor said is a form of self harm but i dont think it is, its definately a compulsion + i wanna stop now, please help someone.