Think I've got POCD. I can't quite tell maybe you can..

So lets start out with me before we get to why I feel this way, first I've lived a pretty on scale mediocre life nothing to tragic besides divorce between parents and them always wanting me or filling my head with things making me feel as if I had to take sides. I've always been a worry wart let's face it, I'm a sixteen year okd male, always been wierd with my hair and if it was out of place i'd flip and have to repeatedly fix it until it was spot on becuase then at that point I'd feel pretty bad about myself. I've of course worried before thinking I was gay and heart started racing with thoughts etc still have thoughts once in a while but that's fine and normal when it clmes to males and females my age I think. Or maybe just bi or whatever but never really cared in the long run. So let's jump to my point, I feel as if I am a monster, I think things randomly to try and test myself and see if I am attracted to children which most of the time of course I don't quite get erected or anything and if I do get a groinal response it's minor. But that is later on, I was masurbating at least a few weeks ago, everything normal on and on, then a tabboo thought popped in my head and it was quite at the end of when I was going to be finished and I guess you could say it came in at the worst time possible.. I of course was using coco butter so that might be half why but anyways, before that I even question myself and worried and worried and worried and battered myself with anexity if I loved my girlfriend or not, I got kver this within a day or so and hey, it wasn't the worst, then ironicly as I said masurbation, tabboo on and on freaked me out, made me think I was screwed in the head somewhere, I couldn't eat much for a few days or a week it'd be on and off, it'd pop in my head constantly make me have mood swings and even when it first started I pretty much fell to my knees. So now when I'm near kids I don't quite have too much groinal response at all, but I have these thoughts and my heart constantly races, even later on after a week I got over it but then I decided to let my girlfriend know why I was abit eh the past week or so, she got freaked out but I reassured her I wasn't attracted to kids, and even before I told her and got over it te first time I thought what if I'm not sexually attracted to her and battered myself again. When she freaked out she even said "I can't be with you if you're attracted to children" Of course I told her, no I am not like that. Please help, I don't feel like I am that way but something keeps bugging me out of spite in my head making me feel I am. And I feel like I am going insane. I mean, its been a month or so, so I'm not as bat screwed as I was but, I still have my doubts. And honestly I want to grow older as I am 16, I want to live a life with this girl, I love her I've known her for a few years and she was my bestfriend for quite a while. And I don't want to make any mistakes. I want to one day get older, have kids, wife and live a life normally. Not in shame, guilt, or even insanity. Thank you for listening...

Thank man, I've been tryin. It's slowly making it's way.