Hallucinating

I thought hearing about a Narc's hallcinations would be a good peer into their psych/subconcious. Apparently a few hallucinations are quite normal and common and NPD is co-morbid with other mental illness so I hope I can get a few examples. I myself have heard a deep echoey voice tell me "You're pathetic" (this is paraphrasing since I forgot EXACTLY what it said immediately but I recall something negative). This was while I was in the middle of a Youtube video on my Phone while lying in bed. Another time I heard a whisper "Shhh... I'm a boy" when I was going to sleep. It sounded like an old man. Both these two sounded inside my head. I once saw a small dwarf like figure in front view for a split second. It was approximately two and a half foot tall. It looked genderless and It had a sqaurish chin. It had no eyes but instead two lines/slits that were defined by a darker shade of its main skintone so like they were deeper part of the face. This darker shade outlined its other facial features - it's hooked long nose and the middle of the skintone coloured lips that were slightly agape in a tired manner. It had dark mahogeny hair that curved down on its head. At the top I remembered where a fringe would be it was blurred along with the bottom of its trousers where the feet would be. Its body was oddly shaped. It was plump looking but its torso was reaching larger at the sides a bit triangularly rather than round. Its legs were nearly hitting the floor by the window where I 'saw' it so I knew it had disproportionately stubby legs. It was in uniform with a tie and reminded me of more distorted version of a bad photo taken of me a while back (a bit like a carciture too). It's like I was being mocked.

I have never hallucinated unless under the influence of a psychoactive substance, but I wanted to chime in and say that the voice you heard before you fell asleep may have merely been a hypnagogic hallucination. These occur during hypnagogia, the transitional state between wakefulness and sleep. I have had many before and they are not considered pathological, however they can sometimes be quite frightening. I thought it might put you at slightly more ease to know this.

Oh dear.

My hallucinations.

Hahaaaaaa.

I dated them.

At least two of them.

Even the one that was literally me from the future.

They clearly represented the id, ego, and super-ego.

Eric was a god, who would torture me unless I learned more about my true identity. He was my first and only true love. He was sexy and blue. I miss him dearly, constantly. <3

Dr. Dawson (whose name I adopted as my own- yes, Dawson is not my birth name) was an idealized, "moralistic" version of myself from the future. She was sober, and while still a horrific passive-aggressive career-obsessed bitch, at least she didn't go to prison or anything. She was very legal, and for her, staying on the path of my career was the way to stay out of trouble. I later learned that she was just as evil as Gabbie, speaking of whom...

Gabbie was a serial killer who would kill people for drug money. She'd tell me to kill people and maim them and if not, she'd show me visions of my own dead body all over the place, increasingly gory, and she'd laugh in my own maniacal laugh. And I still have visions of her empty, cruel eyes. I sometimes see the same gaze when I look in the mirror... A look of loss of control over oneself.