When I was 8, I would get visions of people, usually my classmates watching me through my house's windows. I knew it was just my imagination, and I was playing 'pretend' I guess, but then my classmates would say things that made me believe they really are watching me.
Then, when I was 11, I developed this fear that people were reading my mind because I was terrified of people knowing that I was gay. People would again, say things that seemed to confirm that they can read my mind, and I'd start to believe in my fear and it became a delusion. That went on until I was 16, where I developed a new fear.
This fear was about people knowing another secret about me that I don't want to talk about, and the fear was that I was sleepwalking at night and posting my secrets onto my social media, where everyone can know what I was worried about hiding. I started to believe in this fear when my friends seemed to be referencing thoughts I might have posted onto my social media according to the delusion. I finally deleted my social media out of the stress that delusion was causing me. I know I call them delusions, but I still lowkey believe they're true, and the reason I want to get help is because I think there's a possibility it's not true and it's just my anxiety.
What I want to know is what disorder could have possibly caused this? I did see my G.P who got me referred but I have to wait 2-6 months for an appointment with a psychiatrist, and the uncertainty is killing me.