Unable to discuss or focus on the past

Una+ wrote:Who wouldn't be? With a multiple there may be tremendous complexity and confusion and internal conflict, and yet at the same time there is little or no ambiguity. Each part tends to carry and convey such pure, unmixed emotions that the other person has no doubts about what those emotions are. Their own mirror neurons fire in crystal clear, unambiguous patterns. In effect, your most intense emotions are highly contagious and someone who loves and cares for you will tend to resonate very strongly with your loving and caring feelings for them.

This is so beautiful and so intense. It's really wonderful.

Seangel, did it feel like that for you with your SO who has DID?

I used to puzzle over what other people saw in me, that I didn't see. But then I met my Alter 5's other man, who also has DID. When I realized he and I both are multiples, then I got it. Wow. Now I have met a handful of other multiples and even with them I experience that same quality of aspects of the person being fractionated, isolated, distilled. They don't resonate with me across the board the way Alter 5's guy does, but a few of their alters do resonate with mine.

Una+ wrote:Seangel, did it feel like that for you with your SO who has DID?

Yes Una, it felt like that. Some of his parts had an intense, and pure feeling towards me, I could felt it, see it in him, there was no doubt. And whenever I was with him, I was mesmerized, and it felt so perfect, I was so in tuned with him.

There were also parts who had no feelings towards me, and I could also see it. That's why it was confusing and so difficult to let go. How to let got that pure connection I had with him? But how to be with him when he could ignore me, and hurt me like that?

I do wonder how it is that I convey feelings? Can I transmit this pure feeling? Is it mixed with my doubts and fears and then I don't convey it that purely? It's amazing to know, and see, and feel this in a multiple.

Sea