Where Did you get your SCID-D?

Thank you for caring .

The negative memories are mostly from myself looking at myself.

The employment itself was very good and the employer was very demanding, yet very efficient and "I" felt like he was pushing me in a positive and professional position. Almost "bootcamping" me into learning the job and how to do it well.

However, the 3rd person memories i'm getting (They all feel like i'm looking at myself either from the front of me or from the side of me) are a very negative person the person that is behind me right now and he hated everything and everyone.

I will heed your advice and do some inner thinking about it. However, the position i'm currently in i think its more his decision on wether or not to take me back. (Probably due to the other parts of me doing things I was unaware of while i was working there)

Try googling "sliding scale therapist" in your area. I found one and still couldn't afford her prices. Through emails back and forth with her we managed to come up with a solution. She volunteers services through a local church (I know, Ewww). But, in the meantime I am receiving services for free until I can try to get Obamacare.

Snuffthroostr wrote:Try googling "sliding scale therapist" in your area. I found one and still couldn't afford her prices. Through emails back and forth with her we managed to come up with a solution. She volunteers services through a local church (I know, Ewww). But, in the meantime I am receiving services for free until I can try to get Obamacare.

Wow that's pretty cool that you managed to get that done.
I'll try and see if I can find someone.

The main problem i've been finding is that finding a therapist that specializes in DID or dissociative disorders in general is very limited. I'll try googling those things though. Thanks for the tips.

btw : What's wrong with churches?

Trigger warning

I have always found churches to be very bigoted and anti-everyone that doesn't meet their specifications. They discriminate against those who are different, poor or just not "one of them". Most churches preach tolerance while being intolerant. They say give the church all of your money, God needs it and he doesn't care if you need it to feed your family. Then the preacher is driving his bmw, drinking a beer and beating his wife for having an opinion. No thanks, I can worship at home if I choose.

Wow that was interesting, That actually did trigger "something.

I'm sorry it triggered you. And btw, I forgot to say welcome to the forum. I'm available if you ever need to chat or vent or whatever.

No it's fine, it wasn't so much of a "trigger" I guess.

It just felt like the "other part" of me responded to it in some way.

Thanks, I'll probably be chatting you up.