confused as heck

Hi everyone. I just came back from the therapist and I feel out of sorts. For the last 2 sessions, I guess my alters have been coming out. A little girl and the sexual side. Does anyone else feel beyond-words-embarrassed afterwards when that happens???

Today, he actually mentioned the I have DID. He said he would talk to my psychiatrist, before I do on Thursday. I wouldn't know how to go about it. It's not like talking about the weather. Right now, I don't know what I need. I want comfort I guess...knowing I'm not crazy or alone. It's scary knowing that I have it and that my past hasn't the best that it could have been. Part of me feels happy that I finally know what was so wrong with me. That it doesn't have to be like it is on tv. Part of me wishes I would just get over it be a normal person. A normal sane person. I don't know anymore... Thank you for letting me vent. I've been lurking for a while and I love the support you guys have for one another.

I remember those emotions of how it felt when I first found out I had DID (not officially diagnosed, only by T). You're not crazy - your a survivor

I still have days when I want to be 'normal' what has helped is that my littles make me laugh so much and at times have felt sorry for those without it. The emotions of DID feel like being on a rollercoaster - up and down, you just think you're on a smooth patch and you suddenly dive down again.

Hugs if wanted and welcome to the forum

You are not alone.

This is a very good place to vent or ask questions and be comforted.
Its good you wrote a post. You will find a lot of support here.

Take care

I understand feeling embarrassed! Often Sonja will front for me the session after somebody else fronts to reassure our T that we're fine - but our T is smart - he understands Sonja too..

Being diagnosed can be very validating. It is also very hopeful because you can recover!