Opposite gendered alters

i am male, with really bad schizophrenia. Or it was bad, until i started taking medicine. I took depakote because my original dx was bipolar, it made me suffer from mania, so i don't believe i was bipolar. It made every thing worse i crashed into anger on it. risperdal managed all my symptoms, but had bad side effects, and zyprexa made me gain tons of weight. Geodon has worked wonders for me in managing symptoms. I still get the sick feeling i get when i am about to hear voices though. i think its anxiety though, might have to bump up the lexapro. It makes me not depressed. my depression comes from my schizophrenia. I still see lights sometimes. thats what i hallucinate and see now, lights with no source. I used to see all sorts of things, mostly paranoid in nature. like demons and aliens and all of that. i used to hear a female voice, but haven't for a while. She and the other voices were a prominent part of my hallucinations for two years. I stopped hearing voices in february, but i now the most prominent thing that stands out in my mind is i hear my mom calling for me from the other room. If i don't take my medicine i feel horrible, and paranoia and voices come back really rapidly. I had one alter but we integrated. I missed two days of my medicine, and voices and paranoia came back very rapidly. as well as visual hallucinations and delusions. My doctor wants to take me off of my meds in 2 months, as i have been doing well. I'm not really sure if it will work, but i am open to the idea and actually want to try it. I feel as though it probably will not work though.

I am a 53 year old male bodied host. My System includes an angry/aggressive/protector, a child alter, a preteen female alter, an Inner Self Helper and me. My female alter has the innocence of her youth but I would not describe her as vulnerable. She is nearly as robust as I am and fronts 2-3 days a week. She is not a real girly girl, more of a tomboy, wears skinny jeans, Henleys, flats, earth tone makeup and a French pedi; pretty invisible when she is in public. She wears a bikini at the beach but it rare you’ll see her in a dress, wearing nail polish, flashly lipstick or eye shadow.

Both our girl protectors are violent and aggressive (and definitely couldn't be described as being very feminine), and same with a 1 of our males. Another one of our males was aggressive but has taken a more diplomatic way of protecting. we do have a very vulnerable female who is very passive. she's not helpless, but she will act that way to appease males outside, for reasons we're still not really clear on.

Perhaps she was taught that - or instinctively knew that - giving in/complying is the safest thing to do?

My male avoids other males as much as possible. He protects me from aggressive/dangerous females. I'm the opposite. Females intimidate me, and I'm very assertive with men. He can be quite vulgar but I don't know him to be angry MOST of the time.

I'm an 18 year old male although funnily enough, the account here was made by one of my female alters, Melanie. From what I've managed to understand, most, maybe even all of my female alters originated from an older alter, Carla, who it seems likely was the host before myself as my memory is quite blurred from the time when I think she was in charge. She still exists but is very weak and not really aware of what is going on. She's very maternal and used to take care of all the alters but now is only focused on *TW* finding her baby. Today she took over and started rocking a t-shirt like a baby, was very weird for me ***
Melanie is the most dominant (in a good way) female alter. She's 15 and is probably out the most besides me, especially in social situations as she loves talking, I'd say she's even better at it than me . She's not that girly, I'd call her a bit of a tomboy although like me, she is very passive to stressful situations, often finding something funny about it.
*TW* Recently though, a new alter has been about, using Melanie to talk through as she's very scared of real life people and likes Melanie's confidence to keep her safe. This is bad for me though as she's started cutting up my shirts to make them more feminine somehow and I'm pretty worried she's going to out me by wearing them and flaunting about in public which would be rather mortifying to say the least. I know she's called Maria, and Melanie has become very withdrawn since she realised that Maria has influenced her behaviour****
Then there's Penny who is 10 and doesn't talk, using thought emotions to explain how she's feeling. She only comes out when I'm feeling anxious. The last one is Clara, Carla's twin and a lesbian who thinks that men are really weak and pathetic.
Sorry if this was a bit of a ramble

Hi. I have a male alter. Raphael is a little boy so no protector status for him. I don't know if I have a protector so to say. What is it like?

Protectors are pretty much true to their name. They exist to take the pain that the host is feeling, generally from abuse, be it physical, emotional or sexual. My physical protector, Cormic is always at the ready to fight of any attackers no matter how unlikely it is to happen. Melanie takes over whenever I struggle in social situations which is why I call her my social protector although I haven't really heard of this type. Carla was the emotional protector before I integrated with her. She was very gentle and caring, countering any insults or hurtful words from real people or negative alters with comforting remarks. This eventually resulted in her getting targeted though.

Female body, three male aspects, two female aspects, and one gender fluid. The angry aspect is a female.

In this body, there are a lot of females than males. We're all in a male body.