weird hallucinations, may trigger.

It has been a long time ago, but one time i saw a shadow standing over my bed, and then it molested me. i could feel it happening, but couldn't stop it. It was really scary. I don't know why it happened. i am schizophrenic and had DID at the time. but I wonder, could i have been molested when i was younger, and not remember it? even after integration, i don't remember any of that happening to me. all i remember was occasionally my parents screaming at me. never any of that. That never happened. and honestly if it did, i wouldnt want to remember.

It could be a hallucination. However, sometimes alters will remind you of what happened through a shadow or a body memory.

body memories are stored in your body just as your brain stores information/

Hope this helps.

Host, PurfectlyFlawed.

I do remember something from my childhood but we were just kids. it wasn't like what happened to me in my hallucination though.

It could just be a general fear that has come out in your hallucinations rather than being a memory locked away. Also bear in mind that there is a risk of creating a false memory by trying to remember it too much. But there is still a chance it could be something locked away

I hope that never happened.

I can relate since this has happened to me but I think it was just a fear that was put into me since sometimes my hallucinations consist of things that have me stressed out or worried.

I'm going to go out on a limb and say it could be sleep paralysis.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sleep_paralysis
"Hypnagogic and hypnopompic hallucinations are symptoms commonly experienced during episodes of sleep paralysis. Some scientists have proposed this condition as an explanation for reports of alien abductions and ghostly encounters.[13] A study by Susan Blackmore and Marcus Cox (the Blackmore-Cox study) of the University of the West of England supports the suggestion that reports of alien abductions are related to sleep paralysis rather than to temporal lobe lability.[14] There are three main types of these hallucinations that can be linked to pathologic neurophysiology.[7] These include the belief that there is an intruder in the room, the incubus, and vestibular motor sensations.[15]"


"The incubus hallucination is associated with the subject's belief that an intruder is attempting to suffocate them, usually by strangulation.[15] It is believed that the incubus hallucination is a combination of the threat vigilance activation system and the muscle paralysis associated with sleep paralysis that removes voluntary control of breathing.[15] Several features of REM breathing patterns exacerbate the feeling of suffocation.[15] These include shallow rapid breathing, hypercapnia, and slight blockage of the airway, a symptom prevalent in sleep apnea patients.[7] Attempts at breathing deeply fail, and give the individual a sense of resistance, which the threat-activated vigilance system interprets as someone sitting on their chest, suffocating them"

except someone on wikipedia made the article "nicer" because most people view this as a shadow, demon, devil, etc.. raping them.

I know I experienced this.

Just throwing this out there as something to look into.

zrcalo wrote:I'm going to go out on a limb and say it could be sleep paralysis.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sleep_paralysis
"Hypnagogic and hypnopompic hallucinations are symptoms commonly experienced during episodes of sleep paralysis. Some scientists have proposed this condition as an explanation for reports of alien abductions and ghostly encounters.[13] A study by Susan Blackmore and Marcus Cox (the Blackmore-Cox study) of the University of the West of England supports the suggestion that reports of alien abductions are related to sleep paralysis rather than to temporal lobe lability.[14] There are three main types of these hallucinations that can be linked to pathologic neurophysiology.[7] These include the belief that there is an intruder in the room, the incubus, and vestibular motor sensations.[15]"


"The incubus hallucination is associated with the subject's belief that an intruder is attempting to suffocate them, usually by strangulation.[15] It is believed that the incubus hallucination is a combination of the threat vigilance activation system and the muscle paralysis associated with sleep paralysis that removes voluntary control of breathing.[15] Several features of REM breathing patterns exacerbate the feeling of suffocation.[15] These include shallow rapid breathing, hypercapnia, and slight blockage of the airway, a symptom prevalent in sleep apnea patients.[7] Attempts at breathing deeply fail, and give the individual a sense of resistance, which the threat-activated vigilance system interprets as someone sitting on their chest, suffocating them"

except someone on wikipedia made the article "nicer" because most people view this as a shadow, demon, devil, etc.. raping them.

I know I experienced this.

Just throwing this out there as something to look into.

Thanks for the info zrcalo. I'd never hear of incubus hallucinations before so that was interesting to look into. I don't think, for me at least, it's either of those because the first ones mentioned happen as you're just waking up or as you fall asleep and only last a short time. I've never had the feeling of being suffocated so I don't think it's the second one. My hallucinations usually last for hours and happen only at night. They go away once there is sufficent sunlight in the room or until I pass out from exhaustion.