Shallow Emotions

Tonight, I went to the movie The Conjuring. For the first time in a very long time, I was actually so scared I almost screamed. Then, and I'm sure the others in the theater thought I was crazy because of it, I started manically laughing because I was so happy. See, all of my alters take over at certain times. Whenever I'm starting to reach a point that I'm about to really feel the emotion, someone switches and I miss out. So it's been a really long time since I've actually felt much on my own, and tonight was really wonderful. The movie scared the $#%^ out of me, and I couldn't be happier; since the fear wasn't trauma-related, no alter took over and I could actually enjoy my heart racing and my blood pumping and jumping in my seat. I'm in a really good mood now, and I was wondering if anyone else, host or alter alike, felt this way; that their emotions were stinted because of alters taking over like this.

Even if didn't exactly the same, I can, somehow, relate to what you said.

The Conjuring was one of the few movies that made me feel something, that surprised and made me feel that it was indeed a horror movie, and I was ecstatic about it too.

But at the same time, the movie somehow reminded me about that time when I had PTSD (I can't say if I "still have" PTSD, I don't know how that works. In these years I have less nightmares about it and zero flashbacks), so I don't know if I can say it wasn't trauma related, but I didn't feel it like it (if that makes any sense).

I can't say if my emotions why my emotions were stinted, but, yes, I was feeling like that a lot lately and the movie made me feel so f*ckin alive that I couldn't stop smiling and feeling like my energies were at the max. lol

I didn't expect to read about someone who experienced a thing like that too! I'm really considering watching again the movie for the rush of adrenaline I could get thanks to it.

Yeah, it really was a great movie. I'm a little disappointed, actually, that I won't be able to feel the same rushes of fear that I did the first time I watched it, but I'm still going to watch it again, probably more than once.

I'm sorry to hear that it reminded you of your PTSD; it must've been harder, but it's good that you were still able to enjoy the movie.

We saw that movie twice...both times it triggered an alter in here who happens to be half demonic. Her demonic side nearly came out several times after that movie. It's intense. We liked it, though.