Can't remember this week (amnesia topic)

Wow, guys. I'm starting to find where we're losing time, and it's not fun at all. It started earlier today when a friend asked me if I remembered something, something he remembered very vividly. I have absolutely no recollection. Now I've realized I can't remember the entire week.

Mon. and Tues. I know I had to take my finals this semester, but it doesn't quite feel so recent. Without looking at the calendar, I would have said it felt like months ago. Today, even, feels like yesterday. I could have sworn it was the 2nd. It doesn't help that switchy days like today often cause me to lose track of the time.

Yesterday is the biggest gap in my memory. Even looking at our journal, it's very fuzzy. I remember being (TW) panicked, hearing voices, and writing things on myself with a pen. Cursing, "no no no," "worthless mistake," and things like that. It was depressing to see so much this morning. (TW)

I'm noticing other lost memories, especially Christmases and years 12-16. Those are completely gone, aside from a few kind flashes of being with my grandparents. All I know is that I was perpetually miserable during that time.

I know amnesia won't be news to some of you, but I really felt like I needed to put this down somewhere.

-Jeff

I still remember the part when I still have a girlfriend. Yeah, this is not about loosing time but more like gaining time. I don't know how it happened. We were talking by messaging in phone. I had some laugh but it healed me. It was Sunday. The next day, I felt like it has been a week I haven't go to school.
I'm sorry if you are loosing time. Hopefully there's something that can heal you.

Thanks. I'd like to get my memory back, or at least be able to remember like I should. I know some of it is missing for a reason, but I don't want to forget the good times along with the bad.

I've already forgotten what this paragraph was supposed to be. Hopefully a night's rest will help this out. I've been so tired today, and constantly switching has only made it worse.

-Jeff

I'm sorry it is causing you distress. I have had massive time loss in my life and never thought much of it with the exception of a few very panicked incidences. I registered it and did go to the doctor once because I would regularly lose weeks of my life. After finding out I was DID though, at first I found it humerous to loose the time (I hardly even knew what DID was) to be honest. Now I am absolutely phobic of time loss, and ironically, as far as I can tell I have no reason to be.

I hope you're able to figure out why you're losing more time. We understand the confusion and distress.

Thinking of you.

Thanks, LLT. We're feeling better today. It was just the first time we'd had a loss that recent. Thursday must have been a stressful day. In our journal, I wrote that I told one of my bosses (online, because of the nature of the work) general worries I had about my possible DID. And, of course, the meltdown. The brief flashes I have are very faint, like watching them through a mirror or a foggy glass pane.

It's just so frustrating. The rest of the week is coming back, thankfully. I'm reading some chats I had over the week, but I can't believe I couldn't remember so much of it on my own.

-Jeff

It's weird when you start noticing time loss I've previously lost time without realising it. Now I regularly lose big chunks, like I'll go into work and realise I don't remember the previous week, find notes of meetings I had the week before which I don't remember having, etc. I'm guessing this has always happened and I just wasn't aware of it. Maybe it's the same for you? I read on here that becoming aware of time loss is actually a sign of progress, even if it does feel weird. Glad you're feeling better today.

I'm still not 100%, but we're feeling better. Thanks for the reply, owl. At least I'm less oblivious to it all.

I'm actually starting to perk up about it, now that you say it's a sign of progress. Are there any things you use to help keep it from affecting you too badly? I'll be going on a trip with a friend soon, and forgetting what's going on is the last thing we need.

-Jeff

TGFSmith wrote: Are there any things you use to help keep it from affecting you too badly?

Not really, it's still early days with me. I notice that I've lost time, but that's about it I don't have any handy hints! If it's any consolation it's quite likely no-one external will notice anything different. It seems that whoever comes out at work knows how to do my job and losing those days or weeks hasn't had any noticeable negative effects. If anything, it's the shorter bits of lost time which are harder to handle, coming to and realising you've missed a few minutes of the conversation, that kind of thing. I always blame it on spacing out because of tiredness, or something. I hope your trip goes well.

It's still early with us, too, so I can relate. I've definitely had those moments of spacing out in a conversation. Several times, I've forgotten what I just said myself!

At least we're not alone, owl, eh? I'll let you guys know how the trip goes.

-Jeff