fabio is gone, help? Someone would help he said

This is Lesly. OMG OMG OMG
He told me someone here would support?

He was so worn out yesterday and we told him to rest. I staid with the kids but could tell somethin was off. I told them to be good, they were playin nice, and went and <GOD he was on the sacred ground.

I immediately dug into Elfs knowledge. Fabio had been talkin to me before, showin me how to dig into hosts knowledge, how to dig into Elfs knowledge and what the code of the credit card is.

I did what Elf would do. I put candles aorund him, took care of the wound on his tum. Then of the wound on his head. Wounds went away. From above Elf called Fabio to come. I told him I need him.
The sky closeed. YES I thought. Fabio will pull through.

THen the bleedin started again. I started takin care again. SObs
THen the alter we never knew appeared. It s a poodle with a hood and a scythe.
I asked for help.

He came. He threw the candles away. AND THEN

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slit fabio s throat

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He vanished immediately and went to Elf.

I don t know how to tell the kids *sobs*

There was ahand, andit wanted Indie to follow. I told it to go away, and Indie staid put.

I don t know how long I will last *sobs*

Host has been talkin. SHe said: I can t breathe and the system is shuttin down. The system is shuttind down

*sobs*

So lonely right now.
Help

Lesly

My God... I'm so sorry you guys are going through this right now. Ok, so system shutdown...? I'll try to look up some stuff about that and come back if I find anything. I'm so sorry about Fabio and Elf and Nina. I hope you guys get through this.
Ummm anymore advice...? I'm not as good at giving advice as Night-Shade is...
Are you guys still in the hospital? If so, you guys should have some "rainy day" money saved up to pay the bill, and if not, God help you.
You should probably start by getting some priorities set up. The animals are ok, Indie and Amber are fine... So what else needs to be accomplished?
Maybe start by finding a candidate for a new host, just in case you end up dead (not trying to be funny) and if any older alters can help, you should try to track them down.
Hope I helped.
-elf (Forest)
If it is a time for change, it cannot be stopped. Like a phoenix, you will rise again. You are strong enough to handle a shutdown and anything else that comes your way.
Hope. I have hope you will get through.
Night-Shade

Be cAlM BrOtHeR. ThInGs LiKe ThIs HaPpeN. YoU SaId ElF CaLlEd HiM. ThAt MaY MeAn ThE OtThErS FrOm ThE SaCrEd GrOuNd ArE StIiL ThErE ToO, JuSt SoMeWhErE YoU CaN'T ReAcH ThEm YeT. MaYbE EvErY OnE Is AsCeNdInG To A HiGhEr, BeTtEr PlAcE. If ThAt'S ThE CaSe, It WiLl HaPpEn EvEnTuAlLy AnD It MaY JuSt Be A DiFIcUlT TrAnSiTiOn, BuT OnE ThAt WiLl MaKe EvErY OnE StRoNgEr. Be CaLm, BeCaUsE ThAt'S WhAt EvErY OnE NeEdS. I KnOw It'S EaSiEr SaId ThAn DoNe, BuT It CaN Be DoNe. PM Me If YoU NeEd To TaLk. I'Ll bE HeRe.
~JuDe

the scyther came to give more leoneliness

lonelines


ETA
/ the bad of me (Laura) wrote this. cannot explain, it shut off again.

paid the bills, got to leave the hospital, friend picked me up, fainted, couldn t walk,body too weak. I paid thebills and then faded.

Amber took over and couldn t find anyone. She was scared and sleepy.

Then she came online and someone called and I could feel myself comin back.

I left Indie at the safe place and told AMber and Fernando to go there too. I told them how to access english, hosts memories and elfs information. I told them that, if I m gone, to call for Wolf. He travels between the stars and this world and is protective. THey were real mature.
AMber is tryin to grow up. SHe knows she s next to lead.
She s so brave.

Wolf can communicate with the others, they re at the stars, but he wont. Says it s not the intention. He wants me to go there.

I m on the sacred ground. I know the scythe person is out there to finish me off if I don t go.
But can I leave the kids? THey re just kids for cryin out loud.

And what does a shut down mean? Will we reboot like a computer? Will the body die?


OMG OMG OMG
I Miss the others, they were better at keepin it cool.

Should I fight goin to the stars or just leave the kids?

PLEASE help

Fabio asked me to talk to you if you were to come out, and I told him I would.

This is a great place for support. I'm so sorry for what is happening in your system.

I don't know what is best for you and unfortunately no one can tell you what this means for the system.

We are here though and we will support you as much as we can

I've replied on the other thread:
dissociative-identity/topic109532-20.html#p1095909

What I've thought - could it be that 'dying' somehow is part of a transformation? Maybe at some point something unknown happens and you'll find things back. I strongly doubt the body would die, even in the worst case. And still, it is not possible to completely kill a part. The fact you can still tap in elfs knowledge means to me she is not entirely dead - just 'coma-like' or something like that. This does not make it less hard, but may give some hope they should, in some form, return one day. Somehow.

Or maybe, I don't know how your system works, maybe wherever each part is going is a different (inner) world somehow?

Have you tried meeting that scythe person like the abuse alters? Maybe try to somehow talk to him/her?

Nina11 wrote:Wolf can communicate with the others, they re at the stars, but he wont. Says it s not the intention. He wants me to go there.

To go to the stars? Wolf somehow sounds like an ISH to me, or otherwise some inner helper in a way. (Is he like that?). Maybe it's indeed for the better of the system. Maybe there are things (in the inner world, or maybe the inner world itself in the current state) that just didn't function well. Maybe this is all part of some thought out plan, and everything is going to be for the better. (I really hope for you this is the case).

I wish you (all) much strength anyway. I'm thinking of you.

the one finishin off fabio isn t part of our system.

I ve used magic now (here this, me and magic go figure) but I tapped into Elfs knowledge

I huge beam of light appeared (the inner world is rather dark).

wolf says to go, and that fabio is comin back?
I feel like I m bein messed about with.

He said all of this is part of the shutdown.

He holds my hand. Not wolf no. S omeone from the stars. None of which I know. He holds my hand. this hand reached out to Indie too.
Can I follow it?
Wolf says I can.

I m gonna ask again.

thx for helpin me think this through.

I don't know who Wolf is exactly, but to me it seems like he can be trusted.

The light is, I think, a really good idea.

Nina11 wrote:wolf says to go, and that fabio is comin back?

Could it be, that going there somewhere is somehow needed for a transformation for that part, that Fabio will come back in some different form? I don't know. Just what I thought.

Nina11 wrote:I feel like I m bein messed about with.

I imagine. Yes. This is quite a turning point. I guess it's somehow needed. I am quite sure this will all make sense in the end.

I'm still thinking of you. Hoping things get better.

I m holdin the hand
it feels as if I m comin home;
there is so much light
I could never have imagined

I m goin into the light. Someone is waitin for me.

I don t know when Fabio will return?

If it takes a while, do tell the kids please? I can t reach them anymore. Reassure them I ve taken care of the last bad guy in the system, with help of all of my friends, countin you guys too.

So - I m off. Not sure where to. DOn tknow if I ll return. I m exited and relieved.

Lesly