Supportive Integration - Roles Trigger

Our T has us doing something called supportive integration. I will post this in hope that it will help others. Keep in mind that I am not yet ready to process trauma and that this and integration are separate functions.


First we have had a great deal of reorganization over the last year and none of this is organized by any part inside, but they can observe and feel it happening. (Most thought it was my system managers doing it, but they say it is not, the brain just does what works once it knows what direction to go)


1. So in this process of reorganization we have let go of all material things in the inside world. There are no more homes, no more scary places, no one has a body now, but all Alters still look different from ISH. We are all organized into one big ball, separate, yet together with the ISH outside the ball because their job is to observe all. This all happened by learning about each other, accepting each alter and caring.

2. Now we begin supportive integration.

a. All ANP (past hosts) huddle together to form a giant circle.
b. Inside this circle is all our fragments.
c. In the middle are the EP (parts that hold trauma memories)


I have so many alters that I go level by level letting every single alter come out and take over the body. The ISH's will come from the outside to join in this process. Each alter will eventually stand in front of each ANP and ISH and do their best to join and share with each other. This involves total acceptance, love and sharing. It's an overwhelming experience if you do it right.

Still one alter at a time - the alter then goes and does the same with every single EP. (This takes so long in my system! That is over 300 separate meetings for each alter! Whew!)

Now I ask that all alters and the ISH all do the same as a combined effort. I also ask that all fragments do this and that all ANP and EP look and find any fragments that they can take inside, that they can combine with. I think the fragments will be easy to integrate with, but I don't know yet.

This can go on for hours. I think I started at 6am this morning and an alarm woke me up at 11am to do something. The others inside can continue this work while I attend to real life, but they need direction often.

*Note - So far my ISH's do not believe they will (which are a part that exist in those without DID too) integrate with the others, but their involvement does help. They are almost like alters, but not alters at the same time. Time will tell. In non=DID they are called inner wisdom and all sorts of other names.

That is very interesting! Best of luck with this!

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This is amazing...

The fragments I call orphans. During this process of supportive integration we work on adopting fragments. The alters find the fragments that are most like them and take them in. They become one. The last 24 hours have been some intense orphan adoptions (they got the hang of it) and I am down to less than 50 fragments right now. Tomorrow I expect all fragments to have been adopted.

WHEW! This is HARD work!

Soon to be minus 5023 fragments (EP) and the alters remaining will be better. They say they feel calmer, better, fuller, happier, more complete, less alone - satisfied.


Note - this is being done before any trauma processing has been done.

For those interested in more on integration, this is a good paper on integration that has helped me quite a bit.
http://www.sidran.org/sub.cfm?contentID=73&sectionid=4

What an impressive 24 hours! All the fragments in our system have been adopted --- That is 5023 Fragments! Leaving me now with 330 Alters/ISH's

How did we do this? Using our therapists integration instruction - I started with Level 25 and have been working backward, because the higher levels are smaller. Sage (one of my 4 ISH') had been observing what each alter did when trying to integrate with a fragment.

It came to her while I was working with level 15. Katelyn - (EP, Level 15), (who's job is to finish things) did something different from the other alters when she tried to integrate with fragments and Sage (ISH) observed this.

Level 14 tried what Sage observed and it worked. We were making huge progress. Level 13 also did the same. Then it was level 12's turn and following each levels focus on integration, we open it up to every alter to work on it. 24 hours later ALL fragments had been integrated! WOW!

So what did Katelyn do that Sage observed? Sage says it is hard to explain. She will work on this and let me know.

We are working hard on integration, because without some of it, processing trauma memory would be more difficult. Any way, I hope this helps some of you that have a large system with a lot of fragments.

Congratulations to all of you! That is such awesome progress

My integration issue - this might help some of you in your progress:
ALL FRAGMENTS are now integrated without doing any trauma work. Pretty cool? One of my 4 ISH's Sage observed a 3 year old alter, Katelyn, who showed pure acceptance, joy and love toward the fragments. This allowed something automatic to take control - the mind doing what it does - doing what works best after being shown an open path.

This morning - I did not have to initiate integration. Another alter did. It was quick for the level 12 we are working on. However then we open it up to the whole system and it's still ongoing. Again, all this with no trauma processing. Interesting.

My T says I must do some integration prior to trauma processing or I have so many system protectors they will halt the procedure. He has not steered me wrong yet.

Interesting processes you're going through, thanks for sharing tylas. Don't have energy to read it all yet but keep us posted on your progress, well done for all the hard work, hope it pays off.

Thank you for posting your journey, Tylas. It is very interesting to read, and I will be looking into incorporating similar processes in the hopes of increasing acceptance, awareness, understanding, and co-consciousness.

~Rain

I am glad my posting is helping others! This is my intention.


Integration has been ongoing all day beyond the fragments. It's like we found the key to the lock and are now just holding on tight for the ride. We have done this before though, but I don't think they key fit quite as well before as it does now.

My ISH Sage reports that ANP (past hosts) are integrating with EP (parts that hold the trauma memories). Long day, but so worth it!

Here is what My T wrote. Some of you might find it interesting:
Outstanding! Two important things seems to be happening here, at the least: Distance between parts in the system is dramatically decreasing; and positive attitudes between parts in the system appear to be dominating and increasing. Why does this matter? Well the proximity issue is fairly obvious. It's much easier to build a sustained sense of monolithic identity if our personality parts are not separated by impenetrable barriers. The second factor is different - it's about respect, appreciation, and even longing for contact, between parts.

This integration business is not a single, made-once journey, which ends at some point. It is an ongoing dynamic internal drama. We are continually making and remaking ourselves. You are learning ways to do this, and this learning process, you may be assured, will continue all your life. Because you're focusing on it, and starting from a very challenging place, it's likely that you will be very much an expert in integrative processes at some point.