Tired of not feeling..

So here it goes I guess..

I have a really nice boyfriend who treats me like the world. He knows about the BPD and doesnt care and I love being around him. I know that I am happy and in love but it's frustrating that I dont FEEL it. I always had to cut off emotions because they were never validated so Im dead inside all the time and that sucks

From what I know, a lot of BPD's go through this (sorry, Lia - a lot of people who have BPD). I can't say that I respond exactly the same, as I generally only feel empty to myself; external validation is still a hit of heroin for me. I feel guilty about it, feeling that I don't deserve it, but that's about it. But I understand the feeling of confusion that comes with it. You know you're happy and in love but you keep thinking to yourself "I know how I'm supposed to feel right now; why am I not feeling it?". It's a very disturbing sensation, to say the least.

Can't say that I have any solutions for you, but I do empathize. Sorry.

its frustrating because you wonder if its gonna be that way forever

JohnnyBlaze wrote:From what I know, a lot of BPD's go through this (sorry, Lia - a lot of people who have BPD)

I never even posted here. Don't be a bully. I'm reporting this to Mods.