BPD with hearing voices ect, need advice.

hi all
I have a problem, for years now I have had BPD And my doctors agree, but there is this crisis team i have to ring when i feel like suicide or self harm to help me, they are no help, they think im putting it on and that I just have a lesser personality disorder, i have all the symptoms but I also hear voices and see things that arnt there and fullY interact with them, so im not sure if iy s BPD i thought it could be bipolar, or even schizophrenia, or a mild form.

I want to go to psyciatrc hospital at st Anns but they all so no, I really want to I said I could go throuGH elective addmissions but still they say no.

The thing is im sure they are trying to help but they are sayig stuff thats almost as contradicting as just be happy when yor major depressed. i feel lost and hopless.

can anyone who has been in hospital tell me how they got there or can anyone give any advice, im scared i might hurt someone if it carries on and i get no help.

ok,can ANYONE give any advice, been in hospital or not.
i need somewhere safe and i just dont know what to do, i dont feel safe at home.

Hi there

I'm no psych expert but I do know Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). I have had 15 hospital admissions in a year and believe me the best thing you can do is stay out of those places. The doctors and nursing staff have no idea how to treat you when you;re there and you are basically ignored. I agree with you on the Crisis Team biggest waste of time and money I've ever seen. Even if they were to send you to hospital there's no guarantee where you will end up. The pressure on beds is immense and my last admission meant I was shipped 40miles away from home. No fun believe me.

Have you been offered the STEPPS programme? It's tough to do but on the whole you will benefit from it, they can't promise the voices will stop but they can help you with the emotional episodes. Most of my admissions have been forced on me but even when I've had long admissions they have done me no good.

Honestly your best course of action is to hassle the hell out of your Psychiatric nurse, social worker and psychotherapist if you have one. Keep ringing them when you are in crisis. If it's out of hours take yourself to the local emergency room and tell them how your feel, the psychs on duty are normally very good and will help you through a crisis.

I hope this helps

Deb

I've started having problems with voices again after around 7 months of them being gone.

I'm still taking Olanzapine but for some reason they've come back (maybe due to the pressure of CBT which I'm doing at the moment)

They've been bugging the hell out of me all day and making me really angry. The the only way I can get them to stop is to go to sleep so I've already slept through most of the day.

Just when you think things are better they bite you in the ass again. #####&.

Hey! I am 20 and female and know exactly what this feels like.

I have had three hospital admissions over the last year that add up to six months inside. It took over ten suicide attempts before the crisis team even considered admitting me into hospital and even then they told me that there was nothing actually wrong with me and that I didnt really need to be there. The crisis team are absolutely useless and unless you have either bipolar or schizophrenia they wont take anything you say seriously and send you home even more confused and desperate than before.

I hear voices constantly which tell me to hurt and kill myself and other people. I used to take olanzapine and it really helped at first then stopped working. The hospital tried me on a few new meds but nothing worked and the only thing that shuts the voices up is listening to really loud music through headphones.

Since hospital is not always the best answer there are other ways of getting help in the community. If you have a CPN or Care Co-ordinator then talk to them about new meds/therapy and they can sort stuff out for you. My care co-ordinator has done more for me over the last year than any of the doctors in hospital. If you dont have a CPN or care co-ordinator then simply go to your GP and explain whats going on and they can refer yu t specialist teams and can contact the hospital if they think its necessary.

Borderline is a horrible thing to be diagnosed with in so many ways but dont give up however hopeless it seems as eventually somebody will listen to you and get you sorted out