I hate hate hate all these people in my life. I wish I could get them all out permanently. Dont see that happening though. I just want to scream I f' ing hate you at every single person.


Not much chance of finding any new people either at this point. And l will never be able to stand being alone. F that.

what about only up to half the official rent can be covered by sexual favours and regulation on what that can entail like only light sex, no anal. If there is a true relationship or friendship and that can be proved then the regulation is relaxed. This is in respect of all peoples right for economic autonomy.

I wrote this the other night so I thought I'd just copy it on here to see if someone can relate to me. I don't understand why I can not make up my mind any more. I am constantly changing my mind on my career (even after I've spent hundreds on new courses etc) I get easily bored and end up completely hating the idea. This can happen with friends , lovers and even down to my hair colour. my boyfriend has now left because I pushed him out, always thinking he thought so little of me , I started acting up, I would say such horrible things then I would beg him back then two mins later kick him out again but secretly I want him to run back with open arms, a bit like a movie. I have started cutting my self to relieve the constant thinking , I sent everyone texts saying I was going to jump under a train but luckily I got arrested for being aggressive to the train conductor. I am normally agreesive to shop workers etc unless Im in a really happy mood and feel confident( these moods are not coming around that often). Ism at wits end as my doctor said I was depressed and sent me on my way, I'm not depressed I am happy sometimes ,really happy where I'm dancing round and planning away.....mom confused I'm 26 and my life is just stuck on repeat.

Solid is such an odd word...
That is all...

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