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Wretch pt 2 by OpheliaIncarnate on Sun Aug 11, 2013 1:16 am
"why are you even still here?"
Thats what i was asked this afternoon by the woman whom i've looked up to all my life.
The woman who stood in the place a mother should have been, and had for al intensive purposes behaved as one.
But lately, shes showing more and more of the hate for me that I hoped was only my own paranoia.
So I truly am alone in this.
I haven't a family to back me up.
My friends are mostly busy with their own lives, starting their own families.
And the boy... oh how unaware he is... blissful in his ignorance...
I feel sorry for him.
Hes invested his time into me. Introducing me to his friends and family. Being patient as he has and trying ever so hard to understand.
But I dont think many would ever understand.
That I dont have a choice.
I have NEVER had a choice.
This is something I have known for far too long.
The only moments of peace I have ever known came from it.
I fear that if things continue the way they are i'll be faced with accepting my fate once more for it has always been the kinder option.
Those who claim to care seem less and less interested and maybe it would be better that way.
If She wants to just remove me from her life then so be it.
But I will not be blamed for my actions.
I will not be held responsible for the consequences of somebody else's actions.
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