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Trying to isolate my feeligs
on Sun Jun 01, 2014 7:20 pm
I just looked at the clock. Nearly 30 hours ago I was sitting in a filthy seat at my machine. Jumping from $5.00 bets, to $2.00 bets to $1.00 bet and then yes .20 cents. Until it was all gone. Today; I have not taken phone calls or desired any contact from outside. I am gearing up for my self exclusion experience. I hope it goes painlessly. Even though I know I will miss the escape. I need to do this for my long term health and wellbeing. I intend on doing it this week.
I have to do it this week. Or I will risk being untrue to myself. I have a saying and it's silly I know: wherever I go, there I am.
No sense running and hiding. I will always have to look in a mirror and admit I am a compulsive gambler.
on Sun Feb 19, 2017 3:32 am
i was waiting outside of a place. me and a big group of people i know but can't identify were going to go in there to watch a documentary. when we got in, it was a church. everyone including the father... [ Continued ]
Women and sex and relationships!
on Sun Feb 19, 2017 3:31 am
When o when will this strangle hold on my abilities with women stop; when will it stop!
I understand a specific aspect of dissociative disorder; I can believe that the rest of the world is against... [ Continued ]
OCD *trigger warning*
on Sun Feb 19, 2017 2:39 am
I'm hoping to reach out to someone suffering from OCD - Pure Obsession/Intrusive thoughts. You are not alone and help is available. My problems began at an early age. Example: I would drop something and... [ Continued ]
on Sat Feb 18, 2017 9:46 pm
So these voices in my head keep telling me that everyone used to have black skin on themselves including myself. So why is everyone a different color now? It must be magic. Why do you burn in the sun?... [ Continued ]
Re: Howdy y'all
on Sat Feb 18, 2017 2:32 am
Howdy back and welcome to being an active member of PF
Re: i don't know the subject this time
on Sat Feb 18, 2017 2:28 am
I know, in my worse moments, I feel as if my hold on reality slips. And it sounds almost as if you're disassociating a bit. Been there done that, also.
I don't know how it works for you, but it... [ Continued ]
Re: Fell off the DVD waggon...
on Sat Feb 18, 2017 2:18 am
Considering you're already past the mean survival for the worse kind, and the other is much more common, correct? Prayers and fingers crossed...
I don't think it's odd at all to think of something, anything,... [ Continued ]
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