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The Toll by ExTinaUser on Thu Aug 28, 2014 9:37 pm
You wanna f*ck with Tina?
Well, there's gonna be a toll
You better be ready
To give up your family, your friends, and your soul.
She lures you in with promises of happiness, security, and joy.
Then she steals from you, makes you lie, and uses you like a toy.
Tina will only ever make you feel good once in your life.
After that, all she'll bring you is nothing but pain and strife.
So, if you're ready and willing to lose it all,
Give that B*tch Tina a call.
Just don't forget about the toll:
Your family, your friends, and your soul.
Sorry if I offended anyone with the less than polite language. This poem was written by myself the days I decided to quit using Meth. I have been using meth on and off for the past 11 years. And I've noticed a pattern connected with my relapses...whenever a huge change takes place in my life, whether it be a positive one and or a negative one, Tina seems to be the one helping me cope-like a crutch. But because of her overwhelming presence in the lives of those who know her, she soon develops into a prosthetic limb, versus just a crutch. She becomes a part of you. She starts to rule you. She makes decisions for you. She influences everything little thing you do. You give it all up for her but it sill isn't enough. And throughout it all, she's numbing you to the pain that a normal person would feel in regards to such losses. I've lost my kids, several jobs, several different vehicles, my husband, and my very being. I'm almost 30 and I have yet to discover who I am. I DO know this much, Tina will forever remain a part of my past, and that is where she shall remain forever more. I'm tired of letting some man made, corrosive, life altering substance rule me. I, and only I, will dictate everything I do. I, and only I, have the power to change my life for the better. Our future is set by our actions today. A negative today will not produce a positive tomorrow. A positive tomorrow will only be such with a positive today. So starting today, I will walk through life with nothing but optimism and hope. Going forward, I will use the lessons learned and the love of those around me as a tool to help me push forward whenever I start to feel like it's too hard to do it by myself. Addiction may be a disease, but it's easier to kick than a blocked artery. And today is as good a day as any.
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