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Logging My Journey by maggie246816 on Mon Jun 22, 2015 4:48 pm
I saw that people on this website are able to have a blog, and I took that opportunity. Though I may not have much experience with blogging--besides having a tumblr account--I love to write. Amd I'd like to document everything that happens to me.

My name is Maggie. I'm an 18 year old caucasian (biological) female. I do prefer male pronouns, but not many people acknowledge that.

Thus far, my significant other (Autumn) and I have met two alters. The most prominent alter's name is Reiner. To my embarrassment, he is a character from the anime "Attack on Titan". Reiner Braun is a rather tall, muscular blonde boy. If you want more information on the character, check the anime's wiki.

He is friendly most of the time, but he can be pretty aggressive or sad or angry or confused or frustrated... He's an alter. He's a person... Kind of. I like to think that he is his own person.

Strangely enough, I've spoken to him, before. A few nights ago, I switched to Reiner mode. Autumn told me that he was freaking out and panicking and speaking in German. (For the record, I only know how to say a few things in German.) Somehow, in the midst of his anxiety attack, my mind showed up. I felt as if he was sitting directly next to me... And I started speaking to him (in English). After a while of using Google Translate and trying to calm him down, he began speaking in English, again. Reiner was talking to Autumn and me about what was bothering him, why he was so afraid... This experience was one of the weirdest and scariest things I've ever been through.


I've been raped, molested, and I found my mother dead. This felt equal to all of those things. Maybe it shouldn't have been up that high, but it definitely was.

(TRIGGER WARNING IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

The past few days and nights, I've been able to speak to him. The three of us--Reiner, Autumn, and myself--have a pretty good relationship. For some reason, though, last night, I completely forgot about everything. I forgot the progress we had made by somehow getting my two personalities to interact... Everything. After Autumn tried to remind me for half an hour, I remembered everything. And I'm glad.

My other alter, we found, is a 28 year old woman named Scarlette. She is, apparently, a kindergarten teacher. Autumn really hates her and claims that Scarlette is a b****. "She's one of those women who believe themselves to be 'cool' and 'one with the teens'." I don't exactly blame Autumn for disliking Scarlette. We don't know much else about this alter, besides the fact that she likes pigs and the color teal.

Thank you so much for reading... If you have anything to say or ask, please do so!

If you wanted to email me, my email is . Thank you!

I love you. You're important.

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Dirty Feelings and Fantasy by fantasyboy on Tue Jan 26, 2016 4:43 pm
i am 23 year old and doing a job as a designer.
now a days my feelings is very dirty and i start doing fantasy about dirty things.
i can't explain what should i do now ?

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boy alter who is also a little alter by dissociatingdarling on Thu Jan 21, 2016 9:18 pm
so i have d.i.d. (dissociative identity disorder) and one of my alters is named benji. benji is an 8 year old boy in the body of a 18 year old biologically female. i have no issues regarding my gender...

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Do I have Conduct Disorder? by 3rr0r on Tue Jan 05, 2016 5:13 am
Hello, I am a slightly troubled teenager. All my life (besides my ADHD) I didn't really think I had any psychiatric problems. Then, when I was 13 years old, I stumbled upon conduct and antisocial personality...

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Sister refuses to allow me to see my nephew by arb321988 on Mon Dec 21, 2015 10:02 pm
Hello all, I'm new here.
My sister gave birth and had really bad Postpartum Depression and she was already diagnosed with Bipolar disorder before hand. I have raised my nephew since he was born. She has...

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An update :: by Tululaboo on Sat Dec 19, 2015 3:58 pm
It has been quite some time since I was both active on the forums or in my blog (not that its much of one) but giving the new year is around the corner and the sad news of a sub-forum closing to read only...

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Re: Dirty Feelings and Fantasy by Snaga on Tue Jan 26, 2016 6:57 pm
As long as fantasy doesn't get in the way of real life, I wouldn't worry about my fantasies.

Re: boy alter who is also a little alter by Snaga on Fri Jan 22, 2016 3:01 am
Hmm might help to post in forums, sweets, in the DiD forum maybe? You might not get much of a reply in the blogs....

Re: AvPD, SAD, lack of eye contact, and fear of being touched? by wonderme on Wed Aug 05, 2015 8:20 pm
Hello Ashley! I never received a formal diagnosis but like yourself I have avoidant tendencies. I was prescribed medication for anxiety in the past which resulted in an unhealthy habit first followed by...

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Re: My first entry, thank you whoever reads this by Ada on Wed Jan 28, 2015 6:37 pm
You're welcome here, Joshy. I'm glad you found the forum. :)

Maybe come and say hello in ...

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Re: Can't say no to sex by Snaga on Sat Jan 17, 2015 6:46 am
Well,I sure hate to see a young woman treat herself that way. The pressure to have sex has, I suppose, always been strong but in these times it seems more than ever, and as an increasingly younger age....

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