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Do you think this is depression or bipolar? by livestrong on Tue Apr 29, 2014 8:33 pm
I looked up the symptoms for both and the hypochondriac in me thinks I've got every disorder and disease on the planet..

I know something is up with me because I'm so different from the people who surround me. I'm so sensitive to everything and everyone and I feel things so deeply and intensely. And so quickly. I'm quite moody, especially as of late, and I'm very irritable. I chalked it up to the recent passing of my mother (about a month and a half ago), but it's still weird. I hate the people closest to me sometimes. Not my friends, not strangers, not acquaintances.. Only my absolute best friends, those who are truly close to me and those I truly love and care for.. I genuinely hate them at certain points. Just everything about their existence and I want to cut them out of my life sometimes. All for no reason. I'll also feel bursts of love and appreciation for them, all of which are phases and pass.

I initially thought bipolar disorder because of the intense mood swings, but they happen so frequently; definitely not a week or longer. If I felt any single emotion for a week or longer, I would probably lose my mind. My moods change daily, but for the most part, I've got a pretty decent disposition. I'm usually really content. Ever since the lost of my mother, though, I never really know what I'm going to get when I wake up. Some days are good.. Some days, however, aren't so good.

I know someone who suffers from bipolar disorder and I don't see many similarities. When she's up, she's up. She contacts all of her friends and is there for them, helping them with whatever she can, making all these plans and just seems personable. When she's down, she ignores everyone and doesn't care if you need anything from her, even just some of her time to vent to her. She becomes very selfish and cold and distant for quite a few days, if not weeks at a time.

I'm not like that. I'm always there for my friends. Sometimes I don't answer because I'm busy or I forget to respond, or just have nothing to say or don't feel like talking to you, but I don't drop off the face of the earth or anything like that. And I only really take out my mood swings on those closest to me by just being irritable and touchy. I also read about "manic states", which I don't believe that I have any. There aren't specific times that I'll be more likely to spend money, or engage in destructive behavior, or drink/consume substances.. I drink on occasions, I don't partake in any drug usage (other than my weekly vitamin D pills lol), and I've always spent money in the same patterns. No peaks or valleys.

I'm sorry for writing so much, I just wanted to address everything that I could think of.. I don't have insurance so I can't see a professional any time soon.. And I certainly can't afford paying out of pocket.. I financially support myself now that my mom's passed and I'm still in college. I understand you guys can't actually diagnose me correctly but whatever thoughts you have, feel free to share.. Maybe you went through similar things? Or maybe this is just normal for human beings? Dunno. Thanks ahead of time.

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Posting a blog by jizzyjo_45 on Sun Sep 21, 2014 11:46 am
Hi I need to list a blog but want to make sure tigers listed in the correct section so as it yo upset anyone. How do I do this ?

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What can I do if my family is causing me pain? by XxMariexX on Tue Sep 09, 2014 7:54 am
I'm a teen and I have an Anxiety and Depression disorder, I'm not positive but I may also have mild OCD. I'm really new too this website and forums so sorry if I do this wrong ...

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Scars i want to keep *tw* by sschoemaker on Fri Jul 25, 2014 8:13 am
My mom wants me to get rid of my scars...But i find i really don't want too. I don't not want to wake up and not see them there on my left shoulder, on my left wrist and my right hip bone. Sick? Very,...

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Fighting. by shortsnorts on Mon Jul 21, 2014 6:00 am
I am a victim of sexual abuse. Most of my previous posts were usually pretty short and very vague about my situation. They were mainly used for ranting, so I didn't expect anyone to read them. Then, I...

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Is this weird? I'm having unwanted sexual thoughts and anxiety by Sadcandice on Tue Jul 01, 2014 12:52 am
Hello. I have been diagnosed with anxiety for a few years now. I am a sixteen year old girl, and I often struggle with intrusive thoughts. My latest anxiety has been sexual thoughts, and feeling guilty...

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Re: I think I love someone I should'nt...? by Nick123 on Mon Oct 27, 2014 9:36 pm
I don't think there is anything wrong with falling in love with either boys or girls. If this makes you feel right, you should go with it, I think. You seem to be feeling very well about this, try not...

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Re: Posting a blog by Ada on Tue Sep 23, 2014 2:58 pm
I don't think the sections make much difference here, jo. It's OK to just post as usual. Blogs are family friendly like most of the rest of our forums. But that's the only restriction. If you want...

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Re: Now What? by Hartlepool_lad on Wed Jun 11, 2014 11:32 pm
Hi Hartlepool_lad here, after posting the previous post I have been searching and searching for answers to my condition and what caused it, I am happy(?) to say that I have found one potential reason which...

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Re: Help! I need a new coping skill. by shortsnorts on Tue May 13, 2014 8:56 pm
I heard that can really cause damage because if you pop it too hard, it can break a vein, or something. Also, I don't want to start a new addiction. Thank you for your advice, though. I'll research that...

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Re: Help! I need a new coping skill. by Screenman on Tue May 13, 2014 8:25 pm
A friend of mine used to keep a rubber band around her wrist like a bracelet, and slap her wrist with it whenever she had the urge to self harm. Maybe try that?

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