Ok recently in the past week I have Just started thinking and thinking about negative thoughts. Not having impulses to follow on them. All things from suicide and not being alive or my mother not being alive. Last week I have not ever felt sucidal or wanting to take my life but these past few days I have actually felt weak and lost appetite. I tell myself over and over that I can beat this and will get better. My mother thinks I am just over-thinking because I usually do but I do not know if its anxiety or anything. It has just started like this maybe 3-4 days ago. The negative thoughts make me feel sad. And even last night while watching a funny tv show a joke was made about a prison convict killing his mother. That made me think really negatively and feel sad because the thought came up of that. I haven't ever experienced this before in my life. I don't have impulses to do any of the scary thoughts they scare me and I want them to stop.

When I play basketball or something else I do not think as much and feel better.