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OCD by Witheringfears on Fri Feb 22, 2013 5:20 pm
I have been suffering from OCD for most of my life. About 4 years ago it started to get really severe. It started with depersonalization and derealization, from that it progressed significantly. The fear og going insane tends to be the pattern for mh obsessive and intrusive thoughts. But recently, after my session with my phycologist we went deep into my past and we talked about how when I was little there were events when people asked me if i was or had been abused. Being a sensitive kid, I cried often and didnt like when people touched me, so that was why they asked im asking. And my parents being very protective would ask me and tell me i couldnt do things like take showers at other peoples houses. Anyway as i told him that i started to cry and i didnt know why. I just felt so much guilt and shame and pain. So after the appointment i was okay but then the next day i started looking into my past and thought of events that i obsessed over that might make me like a pervert or something.
So from that i had thoughts and ideas and fears of being a pedophile or being attracted to familybers. All this made me feel disgusting and guilty and the idea of killing myself sounds great. Ive never been good with guilt. Anyway ive read up on pocd - but my fear is what if i like it? That is haunting me. Obsessional doubt? Pocd? What about the family members? I hate myself, its making me want to break up with my boyfriend because he deserves someone who isnt a sicko. Its just really distressing and i want it to end. Please help

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Sex addict boyfriend. by iclezo1068 on Thu Mar 23, 2017 11:31 pm
I'm currently writing this as I am sat in my bed, crying my eyes out. I am currently in a 3 year relationship. For the past year and a half, I have been cheated on consistantly
Some can say and argue...

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I just want a stable relationship. BPD by Emocarrot on Sat Feb 04, 2017 5:06 am
I really do screw up everything.
There is this boy who was in love with me for months, and I treated him like $#%^ during that time.
I loved the feeling that another human being had so much love for me....

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Awake and impulsive by bpdbabe on Sun Jan 29, 2017 10:29 am
Hi I am new to this. My name is Beck, I ws diagnosed with borderline personality disorder a few months back. Although my psych says I've most likely had it most of my life. An hour ago I got into a fight...

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I don't know. Help? by brahidk on Wed Dec 28, 2016 10:24 am
I've never participated in anything like this before, but it's cheaper than a psychiatrist and healthier than the other "outlets" I had in mind. I don't know where this post is going but I'm...

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All I Want For Christmas by Pand3mic on Sat Dec 24, 2016 7:22 am
I joined these forums looking for an active and supportive community that (I hope) can help encourage me as I struggle with my disorders (depression/bipolar disorder, social anxiety disorder, obsessive-compulsive...

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Re: I don't know. Help? by Snaga on Thu Dec 29, 2016 4:51 am
Hi, I'm one of the moderators here.
This wound up in the blog section, where members can keep a journal.
You might consider posting in open forum, since you are not sure of what may be going on, a good...

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Re: Bipolar or Borderline Personality? by caughtinafray on Fri Dec 02, 2016 12:01 am
The blogs aren't used by many, and comments are sparse. Posting in the forums, Bipolar or BPD, is best for questions.

My input is that they do, indeed, blend in a way that can be difficult to differentiate....

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Re: I don't understand what I'm feeling by Snaga on Wed Nov 30, 2016 3:00 pm
You won't get much response in the blogs, if you're wanting input (and not just asking rhetorically), you ought to post in forum... I'm not sure which forum, maybe just Relationships, as a start, or Living...

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Re: Self Harm/Therapy **Trigger Warning** by Snaga on Wed Nov 23, 2016 3:27 pm
Hey there, I'm the moderator that approved your blog post; you might consider posting in Cutting & Self Injury Forum, as you won't get much (if any) interaction in the blogs.

I'm a little bit of a...

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Re: how do i ask my therapist if i have avpd? by Snaga on Tue Sep 06, 2016 4:35 am
Blogs aren't often commented on, you might think about posting in the AvPD forum, sweets.

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