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venting...as usual by goth_spice on Sat Mar 30, 2013 5:14 am
It´s easy to write here. this way i don't feel like i'm interrupting into other's conversation.

well.....I cut again. I'm not proud of it. I'm almost 25 and I'm stuck in this childish behavior of hurting myself. What good do I get from it? no one knows, and if they see, it's like they've seen nothing. they don't ask, i don't tell.

I'm scared of being intimate with my boyfriend. I've been cutting on my upper arm....it's a mess. quite a few scars...long scars. It's just that work has been so stressful, I've been dealing with rage episodes...it's just sick. I guess I should quit, but I do like the job. Besides, what kind of person would I be if I just quit like that? This is just another step in life. It has to get better....or they have to kick me out first, but I won't quit. I just hope I can contain myself and not do something stupid there....like cutting too deep...'cause yes, i forgot to mention, I've been cutting at work...yeah, i know, what a looser. That's me...

Anyway, i will get another tattoo!
I'm excited and scared. will it keep me from getting another job? Maybe. that's one of the reasons why i shouldn't quit.

i will get a feather o r feathers in colors....not quite sure, i gave my tattoo artist all the info, he will come up with a design. he's good, i really like his drawings/tattoos.

kinda thinking about adding a phrase to the feather. "will never stop" kinda to keep me going, but i'm not so sure. maybe on the other side of my rib cage.....which is where the feather(s) will go.

I've know this for a while but putting it out there hopefully will ease my mind.
I'm addicted to pain. Hence the piercings, hence the cuts. I like it. It feels good. Physical pain only, emotional not really. It's sucks to feel depressed and not being able to get away from my own thoughts.

Everyday I'm learning how ###$ up I am. Couldn't find a nicer word for the description. but I am. Don't even know why or how, I just am. Won't let this go on. it will stop with me. I don't want to create a person with this. No. It's not fair. Why would a little person suffer just because I want. Not fair at all.

well....got a little too much out off topic. New tattoo...pretty excited. That gives me joy....and hope....will keep thinking of the phrase....i like it.... Will never stop. sounds good.

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SO Part III by tmc115 on Tue Aug 22, 2017 9:56 pm
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The emotional fallout was real. I can’t figure out if it was something that would have always been there, or was it something that I brought upon myself.

I learned quickly t...

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Expounding on Part II by tmc115 on Tue Aug 22, 2017 9:17 pm
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I agreed to a three-way because I was intrigued by the idea. I wondered what it would be like. I also wondered why SO was so into it....

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Sex and general relationships with women by OMNICELL on Tue Aug 22, 2017 9:51 am
Things are getting better! Things have unfolded; unfolded pathways from source energy are creating new venues of transformation.
Im interacting with women again; they want to be friends with me;...

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Keep strong! Fight hurges! by lookforward on Tue Aug 22, 2017 9:45 am
Hello all

I've decided to start writing in this blog, instead of keep posting threads. I've been here only recently, but so far I'm keeping myself GF.

In fact it has been only 8 days since I've registered...

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SO part II by tmc115 on Mon Aug 21, 2017 9:47 pm
Part II

We made his tiny cabin our love nest. Spending more time together. I remember standing on his narrow stairs drinking wine and watching a lightning storm.

Even though I enjoyed myself with him...

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Re: SO Part III by JumpingHoops on Wed Aug 23, 2017 3:18 pm
It sounds like you are getting clarity about your life, by writing about it here. That you've been puzzled to no end about people around you, how they behave, and what it means, and whether they like you...

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RE: Summary of who we are by Johnny-Jack on Sun Aug 20, 2017 1:58 am
Bartholomew Oobleck 4, #58. Likes Dr. Seuss books, no surprise as he took his name from one. We've felt a connection to the name for a few years and when we got the second name about a month ago, we researched...

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Re: Honesty is Not Such a Nice Friend by Snaga on Fri Aug 18, 2017 5:56 pm
And yet you converse so well, here... not the same thing I know- I find this a lot easier and I suspect most people do- but still... if only there were a way of taking this and applying it to the verbal...

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Re: Pets by tmc115 on Wed Aug 16, 2017 8:36 pm
Yeah that's what she called them. Some 'How to Discipline Your Child' for new parents sort of thing. They taught her to do time-outs. I remember time-outs. I never had a problem doing them. I have no memories...

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I forgot I wrote this I must've been having a bad time. I made some typos that completely changes the context of a couple sentences.

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