I'm new to this site, but I need some release. My husband has bipolar disorder. No one knows exactly what type, he hasn't seen a therapist since he was 18, he is now 24. I don't know what to do. He goes from the man I married to a cold, snarling stranger in the blink of an eye. And back again just as fast. Its almost as if he is a different person. He doesn't speak the same, his body language is different, even texting on the phone is different. He gets angry if I talk to a live person, so I have to vent to the blog, its my only way to vent my feelings. Feelings of hurt, anger, frustration, fear, sadness, hopelessness that this will ever get better. I love him with every fiber of my being, but most people I talk to say to leave him. In his manic episodes he has cheated, lied, stayed out for days at a time without telling anyone where he is. He just doesn't care, and at times goes out of his way to hurt the people who love him. He has physically attacked his mother, stolen over $3000 from her. She doesn't want hardly anything to do with him any more. I don't want to be another one to give up on him. I'm the only one who hasn't, and that seems to confuse him. He always seems to be waiting for me to walk away. To tell him he is too much and I give up. To be every ex girlfriend and family member he has. Wow, I hadn't realized how backed up my emotions were until I got them out 'on paper.' Like my screenname says, I am at the end of my rope and I am scrambling for everything to hold on.