My father is a monster who has ruined most/all of my life.

Side note: I believe a lot of the issues I have now are a result of a terrible upbringing. I had a meek home, social, and dating life most/all of my life, and struggle today to get in a good station/head space in life.

My father is an alcoholic of over 40 years. His symptoms include memory loss, general anxiety, poor temperament/judgment/flashes of hostility, and denial. He's destroyed, tainted, manipulated, and negatively affected most of my life since childhood, abused/abuses my mother and I physically and emotionally, and lives with me still today.

He's never wanted/attempted to get better, or shown interest in doing so. I have no idea as to why, and all it does is support examples of his destructive behavior.

My Diagnosis:

I've been diagnosed as a major depressive who exhibits PTSD, avoidant personality disorder, OCD, and general anxiety symptoms, and hope to use PsychForums.com as a self-help aid.