what is your delusion of reference?

my usual delusion of reference(or so they say...lol) is God letting me know through the numbers on clocks etc(usually the microwave) whether I'm on the right track with whatever I'm thinking at the moment. To a lesser extent, it's something I read or hear that let's me know what God's thinking, or what he wants me to do or know. I've even had battles of will with God through the microwave numbers:)

What's your DOR?

kate1111 wrote:What's your DOR?

I must admit this is the first time I've heard of DOR, so I'll have to give this some serious thought about what my own delusion of reference is. I'll post again when I figure it out. I see my therapist today and I plan to discuss it with her to see if she can direct me to some possibilities based on her knowledge and extensive amount of time spent with me and all of the things I have revealed to her about myself.

Interesting post, kate1111. Thanks for starting this thread, I'm looking forward to seeing the responses.

Take good care,
Alice

Very interesting topic! I can't wait to see others responses.

My own personal one is that when it is overcast (particularly at night if the stars are not visible), then I feel that the gods are unable to hear me when I pray. Almost like an experience of being abandoned by them. Which triggers an intense, very brief depression and extreme anxiety.

I am completely aware that it's my delusion and recognise that in my case it is related to my experiencing SAD (seasonal affective disorder). It used to trouble me immensely, as I spent most of my life living in the rainy Pacific Northwest. However, I moved to intensly sunny Australia a bit back (to be with my partner) and since then it is much less intense when it does occur. The climate change truly helped me with the SAD and the intensity of my delusion is greatly reduced on our rare overcast days.

Funny how the mind works.

Coincidence and numbers are things for me. I keep looking at my phone when the numbers are symmetrical for some reason and hardly ever when there is not some meaning or pattern to them such as 21:12. I think this is some sort of thing from God because how could it happen so much if it was just chance? Other coincidences like thinking of something and at the same time it appears on TV or the radio also suggest to me some sort of special message. Both of those really set me off.

Cracked

my original D centres around combinations of 6 and the number 6 that i can see in every thing. i think that 6 is divinely inspired and if i can just figure out combinations of 6 in something, then i will blessed and be divine to.. if i cant find some sign of 6 in something then it is because i have failed because i have been weak and committed a huge sin which i will be punished for. mostly i find a combination of 6 but if i dont i have to find it in another thing i go somewhere else, no matter how far to find it. when i get instructions from gods it is always punctuated with 6 which used to make it hard for me to follow but now i understand why. i think that i will die on minute 6 hour six day 6 or week 6 or year 6 unless i can uncover all the hidden 6s there are, which will save me...

numbers delusions, I have had them throughout my whole life. Thanks for the post.

I was good in math when I was a kid and was fascinated by numerical computations. When I was 20, the day before I joined the US Navy, I won a 1-4-2 trifecta bet at a dog track for $913. I'm 52 and have been chasing that number delusion (and others) ever since. Watching certain numbers fueled my gambling that eventually led to a $140,000 debt and many hospital stays. I'm now in my 2nd outpatient treatment program, gave up caffeine and my geodon dosage was increased on Friday to 120mg that will go up to 140mg next week.

I hope people are careful with their numbers delusions.

Take care,
Barnett

I've had some good ones. My last full blown episode was when I was on holiday in Vietname about 5 years ago.

I thought I was a god/spirit who was inhabiting my body (like a vessel) and I could inhabit other vessel's. I literally thought I was inhabiting someone else's body for most of a day and that I was centuries old inhabiting different vessel.

I also came to another belief/realisation regarding bipolar disorder and warrior culture. The vikings had warriors known as beserkers who would go into a manic like frenzy in battle and be largely unstoppable. I was/am a beserker. This is a delusion I hang on to now because I like the idea of it

Speaking of numbers, I became obsessed with the number 304 (my hotel number when I was really sick). I saw it everywhere, it had special meaning, I kept seeking it out. When I got back to Australia and saw my psychiatrist, he crossed of my name at the end of my appointment on his schedule (like a run sheet with all of his patients for the day), said to his receptionist "This one's 304" and wrote the number 304 on the sheet. He still does this at the end of each appointment, I have never mentioned this aspect of my delusion to him, I tripped out when I saw it, but still haven't asked him about it.

It's interesting to me that so many people have posted about spiritual delusions... I think that most delusions have some truth to them...

I tend to think I'm simply a prophet, I'm meant to have this huge broad understanding of what goes on in the Earth vs. spiritual world and spread some kind of a divine message. I don't know if this delusion is dangerous unless I quit my day job.

I don't think I have one. I'm just Bipolar II, without known psychosic episodes. But how I wrote in another thread I sometimes get this strong feeling that overcomes me that everything is connected and I can see them. I'm slightly obsessed with that thought.

Not sure it qualifies as a delusion.
But i firmly believe that anything is possible. Given enough time and resources.
Mountains can be moved. It just takes some time and effort..
Nothing is impossible. Everything is doable.
And there are things I can do better than most people.