Going back to someone you know.

First of all, this is my first post. I found this forum because I had gotten frustrated and upset at "Zoosk" and googled "zoosk is dumb." This forum came up.. anyway. Got to reading, and joined, being AS myself. A recent discovery that really made my life so much better, Giving me a reason why I am the way I am, and having a deep peace about it...opposed to reasons for no reason, hence thinking I was crazy. a perfect cadence to the insanity of new methods or reasonings to ME.

ANYWAY.

Question to you all: I have had a few good friends in the past, and even with ones I am still in friendship with or relation too, the following happens (8 out of 10 times). Example, I went with a close friend and stayed with them for about a week to help move stuff during there moving of houses. During this point, I was getting very on edge and paranoid (about what?..) and just overall TENSE, worried, concerned,and all that that comes with these spells......about seeing my parents and close persons I live with, to the point of really going red in my face (feelings) and scared when I got a text from them just wondering when I was coming back. Total fear filled me and I was scared to answer. It's my parents. Grace. this was day five of seven maybe eight that I was gone. So, my response was: "Not sure." and quickly changed the subject about what we had been doing. With each coming day (Note: after about day 3 "this one" had begun) i felt these un-comforting feelings increase and become more strong inside, making me feel terribly scared to go home, or leave where I was..but didn't want to wear my welcome. My parents Love me and are so good to me. Totally illogical why I would be having these feelings. This tends to happen with anyone I haven't seen. So, When I haven't seen someone in a while or if it's been months and I think of them, things can really get out of hand in my head. If anyone relates or has input or thoughts, please post below.


Thank you,

Alexander.

P.S. After proof reading this and thinking more deeply about what I have said, I am even having these symptoms occur as we speak, being an hour and a half since I went to my room after being with my Dad, I am worried about seeing everyone tomorrow. .....

P.S.S. I am so glad for the "back" button in my browser. when I said submit, it asked me to log in, then go back to previous page. My post was gone, but going back to this one it was saved.

Again, The end. Thread open for discussion.